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Magic Dust

Dear magic dust,

I still remember first time I met him in a place I know so well. From afar, I was laying my eyes upon the person who possessed a beautiful smile alongside with cute dimple on each cheek. I poised myself, trying to be around him while collecting the courage to speak up, even to say “Hi”, it would be enough. But you gave more than that.

There were you on his hair; perhaps reciting the love chants. When I noticed, I came up to him and brushed his hair subconsciously. When I realized of my action, my heartbeat became fast and there he is smiling and while extending his hand to me, he said “Thank you, miss …..?”. And our magic moment began.

Dear magic dust,

Thank you for inspired him to wrote sweet messages, letters and cards. Initially, I was hesitated upon how he would bring this relationship to another level and there you are again made him to rubbed his eyes because “There is dust in my eyes”. I softly blew his eyes and when we found ourselves looking directly into each other’s eyes, he proposed. I was once again feel blessed.

Dear magic dust,

It seems like he is far from my reach. Something about him change. Please, I beg you…bring him back to me. I miss talking to him for hours in the phone, texting him endlessly and cuddling while feel his warmth around me. I love him so much. Without him, there would not be the left of me no more.

Dear magic dust,

He is everything to me. He is my air. He is my sight. He is my soul. He is my life. For me, he is the one; whom I want to devote my life to and to whom I want to called as my partner for life. Let death make us apart and let marriage be our unbreakable bond.

The vow we will utter, the words that we meant; let is be the eternity chant which make us belong to and only to each other.

Usai waktu

Okay, aku admit yang blog ni memang dah lama tak update dah. Well, thanks to kesibukan yang memanjang hatta aku dah habis final exam.

Banyak benda yang dulunya berlegar dalam kepala aku nih dah hilang satu persatu dan cuma tinggal yang satu ni jer.

Vice Chancellor Cup 2009 Debate Tournament.

Bagi sesaper yang tak tau, tournament ni merupakan satu pertandingan debate yang involve the whole campuses under UiTM and for your information, this tournament will be held in Malacca starting Tuesday next week if I’m not mistaken.

My flight will be on next Monday and aku belum beli apa-apa yang patut since I’ll be there about for a week.

Well, kita tinggalkan part debate tu dulu because kepala aku sekarang makin pening nak hafal semua arguments and facts (read: Malaysia Economy).

Aku dapat tahu from a reliable source indeed yang result for the examination akan keluar 10hb Disember nanti. Telahan ini dijangka akan menjadi satu igauan (ngeri) kepada towards the whole students when I talked to my ketua program about his matter.

Definitely aku dah tau yang aku tidak akan repeat apa-apa paper semester depan (alhamdulillah) dan aku cuma mahu tahu akan jadual next semester serta memastikan aku dapat sit for the Economy paper yang aku fail time part 3.

Yes, aku fail satu paper dan aku have to ulang balik my ko-kurikulum part 5 depon since the fucking what-so-call registration system telah menghilangkan kod tu time aku part 3. Aku tak dapat ambik in part 4 due to the fact kredit hour aku yang sebanyak 23 jam telah habis diguna dengan menambah paper Physic yang aku telah repeat sem ni.

Aku berharap keajaiban akan berlaku for the result since aku dah promise dengan Hana yang aku akan dapat DL semester ni untuk dia. Kalau tak, I’ll loose the bet to where which will require me to wear a pair of blue contact lense. *cross my finger*

Aite, until this part that I can type since I have to go to MPH to catch-up some mags and books especially yang ada kaitan dengan world nowadays.

P/S: Kemungkinan next sem aku terpaksa drive ke kampus.

Mengenang

 

Entah mengapa aku sekarang ni suka sangat dengar lagu 60an. Aku rasa aku perlu salahkan Kaseh pasal dia orang yang mula-mula mainkan aku lagu A. Ramlie sebulan lalu.

Pas tu, disebabkan aku dah mula ada private broadband (alaaa…part ni yang aku selalu lupa mention kat korang dalam blog. Nanti kalau aku ada masa, aku ceritakan eyk?), mulalah aku mencari site-site yang membolehkan aku download lagu lama-lama dulu.

Sekarang ni, aku dah ada at least empat buah lagu. Aku tahu sikit gila tapi lama-lama kumpul jadi bukit kan? Tambahan lak, nih time exam sekarang nih. Jadi kepala aku pun sibuk nak fikir menda2 penting nih. Janji aku kat Hana untuk dapat dekan semester nih mesti dijadikan sebagai alasan yang kuat untuk aku able pegang D.L semester nih.

I’m a man with my word and I’m able to do so. Jadi aku harap aku dapat tunaikan janji aku ni. Kalau tak, aku memang gila babi rasa bersalah nanti.

Aite! Tu sajer aku nak cakap kat korang. Karang, aku nak siapkan practical report aku yang dah 4 bulan tertunda. Sir aku dah warn dah. Kalau tak hantar, alamat terpaksa repeat la praktikal aku ni nanti.

Padan muka aku.

Saman oh saman

On the way aku ngan kawan2 aku nak pergi ke Kuching; PUKIMAK!!!! JPJ BUAT ROADBLOCK!!!!

Hati aku cuma sebut perkataan ni jer..."Fuck, shit, damn. Fuck, shit, damn..." berulang-kali sampaikan macam jadi sial lak.

Patutnyer aku doa kat Tuhan mintak lepas kitorang; pasal kawan aku yang drive dan dier takde lesen; dari sekatan jalanraya tuh. Mana tau yang kitorang kena panggil move ke bahu jalan.

Aku dah mula cuak. Kawan aku yang duduk kat depan tu lagilah....perempuan kan? Yang kawan laki aku yang drive lak buat muka confident dan dengan selamba jer hulur kat abang JPJ tu lesen motosikal dier. Pastuh, kitorang kena saman RM240 because road tax mati skali dengan kesalahan tidak mempunyai lesen kereta.

Bila aku pergi ke Kuching guna bas, sampai aja..."Mak aihh!!! Banyaknya polis!!!". Samada polis biasa atau pun polis trafik, suma jumlah polis tu memang banyak sampaikan korang jalan lagi tak sampai 10m ada lagi abang polis kat depan, belakang, kiri dan kanan korang.

Tak caya? Ko lihat gambar ni bebaik sat.....

Para polis trafik dengan konvoinya

Para abang-abang polis trafik memulakan perjalanan. Ko lihat tu sampai ke ujung polis nih bersusun.

Bila aku tanya bapak aku, mesyuarat Majlis Raja-Raja akan diadakan kat Kuching dalam minggu ni. Sebab tu la......

Tapi apapun, RM240 melayang hari ni.

My heart thrumbling & berdebar-debar

Dua minggu lagi semester baru nak start, hati memang tak sabar lagi dah. Bukannya apa, aku just rindu kat wifi 24 jam tu jer lah. Tambahan lak, aku nak berusaha semaksimum mungkin untuk menaikkan lagi CGPA aku. Mungkin kalau aku lebih serius lagi, aku dapat menebus balik pointer aku time aku part 2. We just wait and see okay?

Lately, my mind has been wondered for a while and maybe some of you too also noticed it due to one factor; I’m not regularly updating my blog. Well you could entirely blame the holiday, my tiredness after doing my practical during the day, no access to the internet 24 hours etc. Lastly, for sure you can blame my laziness to write even though I have loads of stuff to be told.

Hakikatnya, kulit aku memang hitam. Bukannya hitam macam Negro tuh tapi hitam manis gitu. Tapi sementelah aku melakukan praktikal aku di padang golf yang semenangnya mendedahkan diri aku kepada punca segala kehitaman; matahari; maka aku secara rasminya menjadi SEMAKIN HITAM. Sumpah aku tak perasan lama nih until aku pergi ke UiTM hari Jumaat itu hari; ye lar, ye lar. Aku tak attend praktikal itu hari….aku ngaku; Miss L dengan ekspresi yang aku boleh katakan agak meyakinkan sekali berkata, “BLACK! YOU’RE GETTING DARKER! EVEN DARKEN THAN ME AND THE THING IS…I’M AN INDIAN”. Sumpah aku boleh kata bila semester baru bukak nanti, kawan-kawan aku gerenti tanya pasal menda nih, “Apasal ko makin hitam, Black?”. Diamlah. Sebab tu lah banyak orang tak nak masuk course Ladang pasal menda alah nih.

Sometimes, maybe all of you wonder why you always get notifications from Facebook aboutmy recent activity. Example, “Muhamad Rahman commented on Karissa Simon status” (LOL, sorry Kara). This is due to I have a free internet access directly from my phone and it never cost me a single cent. Basically, I can’t connect the phone internet to my laptop to get me a free wifi. No, it is only worked when I’m using my phone directly to the mobile internet. How on earth did I do that? Well, basically that is my secret but if you like, you can google the subject about free browsing from a mobile phone. But it will never cut down your credit if it is under 50 cents; quite contrarily if you have a full credit where as it would reduce it as you use the internet. So to be safe, you can make your phone to have RM0.00 credit like my little brother do right now. Instead of having that phone as his main phone, he uses another cheap phone to be the phone with credit since that cheap phone can’t use java mobile software.

Jadi korang boleh kata aku jimat beratus ringgit la sebulan semata-mata perisian untuk telefon bimbit nih. Korang cari jer, memang beruntung korang jugak akhirnya nanti. Hahaha…

So, I end my post with a good luck for the new junior who would register themselves in UiTM this week and next week. Make sure to kick the balls of the people who’ll bully you right (and that includes the one who do the ragging).

The Result of The Result

What can I say? I didn’t perform well in the exam and cause me a lot of hell towards my pointer.
My GPA drop like hell and my CGPA is only barely enough for me to graduate from my course.

Looks like I have to struggle next semester. Well, not entirely. All I need to do is manage my time well and also study smart.

Loads of my friends are able to sustain their pointer above 3 and some of them are able to make it to the Dean List.

I’m so frustrated to myself and I vow to myself that I won’t involve in non-academic activities and reduce my involvement in debates because from my observation that is the main cause of my insignificant asides my inability to focus well on certain subject.

Besides, for next semester I already full utilized my 29 hours of my credit hours and I think that I will have a very tiring semester ahead.

All I need right now is your prayer and wishes upon my future success.

WEEEHUUU!!!! But….

Exam is all over but yet I’m not happy about it. Maybe to certain people you guys will be quite weird for my expression but the truth is; it is.

So far I have 3 papers at stake and with the result that may come out around June; I do feel really afraid indeed.

Why?

I already count; taking the probability of the worst, my CGPA will drop from above 3 to 1.89.

See my situation now?

So people, pray and cross your finger for me aite..

Eye Twitching

Since Wednesday my lower left eye kept on twitching. I do have this back in the year 2007 and now it has return.

Old folks says that if our lower left eyelid keep on twitching, that means that we will cry and if the left eye end twitching, you will go through a bit of hardness.

Since I've been in a total-messed-up-trouble, I've been wanted to believe this superstitious believes; due to the fact what it has been state happened to me in 2007.

But then, there must be a scientific reason on why this symptom occur. Then, I found this:-

Eyelid movement = Myokymia

"Myokymia is; according to doctors;

A common condition where a few of the muscle fibers of the upper — or more commonly the lower — eyelid contract irregularly.
Myokymia is closely associated with stress, fatigue, lack of sleep and too much caffeine.

Treatment: Reduce your stress, get more sleep, nix the coffee, eat more bananas and B-complex pills. Throw in a couple of sugar pills for good measure. Save the cerebrospinal fluid exam for emergencies."

Credit to:- Mama Aina

So there you are. The scientific reason on why my left eye keep on twitching. Yes, I admit I do have a total-thick-gaban-level of stress, lack of sleep and I kept on drinking Nescafe' mild (the yellow sachet) until I stopped three nights ago.

With the exam papers fooling around (you can see me exam schedule on the right), it does really tense me up to a hiking mountain if I could metaphor it.

Thanks to my dear Baby (she really help me a lot in the case of reducing my stress), I'm not as stress at the previuos day but only when I have a quick glimpse of think about my stress issue, my heart will pound like crazy. God, I need to calm myself real quickly.

P/S: Even when I type this post, my left eye keep on twitching like crazy. And I miss my home...

Help me please...

I feel really scare right now...really scare indeed.
My heart's pounding like crazy since yesterday.
My mind couldn't think.
My concentration towards study are fading.
My God, please help me along all the way.....