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Magic Dust

Dear magic dust,

I still remember first time I met him in a place I know so well. From afar, I was laying my eyes upon the person who possessed a beautiful smile alongside with cute dimple on each cheek. I poised myself, trying to be around him while collecting the courage to speak up, even to say “Hi”, it would be enough. But you gave more than that.

There were you on his hair; perhaps reciting the love chants. When I noticed, I came up to him and brushed his hair subconsciously. When I realized of my action, my heartbeat became fast and there he is smiling and while extending his hand to me, he said “Thank you, miss …..?”. And our magic moment began.

Dear magic dust,

Thank you for inspired him to wrote sweet messages, letters and cards. Initially, I was hesitated upon how he would bring this relationship to another level and there you are again made him to rubbed his eyes because “There is dust in my eyes”. I softly blew his eyes and when we found ourselves looking directly into each other’s eyes, he proposed. I was once again feel blessed.

Dear magic dust,

It seems like he is far from my reach. Something about him change. Please, I beg you…bring him back to me. I miss talking to him for hours in the phone, texting him endlessly and cuddling while feel his warmth around me. I love him so much. Without him, there would not be the left of me no more.

Dear magic dust,

He is everything to me. He is my air. He is my sight. He is my soul. He is my life. For me, he is the one; whom I want to devote my life to and to whom I want to called as my partner for life. Let death make us apart and let marriage be our unbreakable bond.

The vow we will utter, the words that we meant; let is be the eternity chant which make us belong to and only to each other.

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There Is This Girl…

There is this girl who is waiting for the right one. She does not do any searching as she lives in the world of fairytales that her prince charming would meet her underneath the crepuscular rays. None she knows things would not be fall right into her arms as she is blinded and captivated by the happily ever after. Hardship does not even come to her mine thou Snow White have to suffer before meeting the one.

There is this girl who found the person whom completes her. Despite the aurora shining above them, she is struggling to keep the aurora from not going away. Her fear of a storm that would put off the beautiful light made her putting a shed over it but it is too big to cover. Restless yet determine as she try to shoe off potential stealers but deep inside her heart, her uttermost fear; the aurora would break up and leave her alone underneath the dark rainy cloud drench in soulless pieces.

There is this girl who is hoping the one that walk away returning to her yet death cannot be undone. She thrives for strengths, fight for happiness and endure the pain; just to release herself from a broken shattered heart. She believe in chances, thus hurting herself every time when they get back together. Never she knew the only way out is to let go whom she think is the one.

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These Are The Words

Narrowing to the gallows of loneliness, “Did you deter to come here on choice or force” one asked.

“No, not by choice nor force. My crying steps can’t think at this moment. It’s the rush of blood which told my body to keep on walking; slowly and gently; so the earth would not be hurt by the harsh thump” as young girl who’s heart is covered with scars attempt to jump into the dark hole…and the story end.

During the initial of the relationship, both are trying to learn and understand each other. Whether to realize that she is spoilt, dependable and keeps track of everything that resolves around or he who is still learning to be dedicated, focus upon the relationship and spend his entire time to listen everything that she says without any argue. Unfortunately, she could not handle long distance relationship. Thus, she had to let go. He: was devastated but decided to moving on with the row of pains.

In the second comeback, in fear upon that she would be afraid due to the distance; he called every fort day everyday; early morning, afternoon, late evening and a midnight call; in order to give her the assurance that he is there, beside her until she feel the non-existence of distance. Clearly, a modicum of loneliness will clutter and before she knows it, another guy knocked her heart and left the first who were struggling with few papers that ripping out his soul but yet, he survived. Being left again, he walks to the shimmering lights in the sky praying to be with her again; and this time for eternity.

When the third chapter was closing so no heartbreak would deteriorate any living being, he told her perhaps fate roaming around them to be with other people and makes them better for each other in the future. Before they knew it, again both of them fell into a deep affection but this time he play safe; he only keep the relationship in real social life; telling it to close friends and real people but for her, she wants the whole world to know as she believe sharing happiness with others is essential.

Clash of thoughts and loneliness covertly seeps into her mind by believing she is not be treat quite right create a chance for another guy to step in; whom she hide from the one who is facing excruciating endurance for his success in the future. Never once he cheat upon her; never; but she believe he is so. Hence, when her superior told her about disapproval towards him, she waited until he is over with his gruesome test to tell him about the news.

Despite the resistance of temptation, a news hovering her ear telling that he is currently cheating upon her where as he is not made her jump off to the end of the line. He listened with all hearts broken and shatter; the disapproval, the adultery; after all that he had given and sacrifice; she left.

He told her that he will wait even it takes another century while she oppose that this is the last. A beautiful relationship is not a myth to him. It does exist and in order for that to appear; mistakes, tears, heartbreaks, shatters and being hurt is the process to go through. Never he will stop hoping nor hate her in any way, that she, will be in his arms, eternally.

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Is The Line Dead?

One of the best feelings in the world is when we hear the voice of our love ones in the end of the line; whether it a late night conversation or a mellow call early in the morning. Perhaps it can be consider in the rule of love which exceeds Bhagavad Gita as one of priority when a couple experiencing Adam and Eve relationship when they are being thrown to each end of the world.

Relationship is just like Cosa Nostra, it demands every gullible efforts, passion and energy in order to deliver the best within you to your partner. Romance is not enough without a railway slip and from there, you able to see at which joint that went wrong. Thus, fixing it together like Lorelai and Luke.

Girls wants a guy with Sephora and guys would expect girls to being able easily to handle like a Mustang; in which both party would sunk to the Pharaoh's melting pot. Feeding each other with mutual respect and trust are the key factors and things will eventually work they way up.

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Late Night

Once, I went through a silent road that I know by heart.

“I finally found her!” my heart whispered.

By the time we reach the final road, she smashed it to pieces. Enough of causing my heart went through despair and sufferings which could lead to my death whenever I miss you.

As I expected, I forfeited causing the cut bleed more because as love come and go; all it did is just leaving me all alone. Letting me live without feel the sweetness of the love itself, constantly ripping me off at the point when I need it.

For sure, by late night, I would going through flashback causing tears running. It’s the only thing that I can do aside keep on dreaming about you.

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Dear Future Daughter

My dear future daughter,

Every time I think of you; that one day I will hold you in my arm; made me smile when I’m going through a rough time and all those burden just shed off to the ground.

You will be a beautiful girl for me; until it made the earth stop moving just because it want to have a glimpse of the face that would shine my world. I’ll take care of you well and nurturing you with all best things that world got to offer.

I would send you to the best school where you can meet your new future friends; which perhaps some of grow up together with you and stay by your side when I am not there for you. Later, when you’re 4 years old, a ballet class I should prepare for you so you could be flexible in the early age so it would be easy for you to take any sports or dance class that you want to be into when you’re 10 years old.

Not to forget a piano lesson so you could develop the artistic value within self so towards the end, you would be a smart, beautiful, amazing, captivating and talent girl people would know.

Thus, the would ask around, “Who’s daughter is she?”

In latter, I would happily answer, “Mine”.

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To Love Somebody

Who says that it is easy to love someone? Who says that it is easy to going through relationship? Who says that it is easy to forget about the person you love? Who says that it is easy to move on? Who says that it is impossible to create a bond?

Loving someone isn’t just about expecting something in return from them; perhaps you might say it is about give and take; but upon self perspective, the main reason why you love someone is because you’re giving half of your heart, your soul and your entire of your hope to share it with someone who is special to you; in a way it could turn you insane in a heartbeat whenever something in the bond goes wrong.

To achieve that level of expectation; doesn’t care what that person has done to you, deep down you’re hurting but you can’t let them go as you accept their flaws more than their good quality.

And that is about truly loving a person; because the assure you that they would never let you go despite bad things that they would do behind your back; there must be a reason, although it is yet non-acceptable; you are the person of their choice; their future, your future, together.

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Special Post: 29th February

For something that can only come once every four years, 29th February in 2012  deserves a special place in our heart. As four years apart from the previous and the next 29th February, surely there are huge and impactful things happening to us.

From relationships, family, self, life, career etc. has does really change a quite a lot in terms of up self bringing whether it becomes better or worse. For some people who are experiencing quite tough year, remember that it is still beginning of the year and starting tomorrow, there would be another ten months to create a great changes towards and within self.

Certain people would leave 29th February with beautiful memories; especially if it is hug and kisses from someone you care the most. You would never want the time to go by as their soft lips touches yours; never let it go as the lips blissfully grasp tightly to one another; wishing not be parting away. Hugs that will be given today, will be remembered as one of the most valuable hug as it only come once every four years. You will hug tighter and tighter as two bodies will be so much closer than usual.

The most painful part of 29th February is telling the person that you care about that you need to go to somewhere for a long period and only within two months that you will return to give all the passion, love, kisses and hugs that was being accumulated throughout the time. It sounds nothing but saying in on a day that only come every four years, made it sound to them that you would come back when the next 29th February appear.

The painful of waiting that they have to bear will be more excruciating since two months of waiting will be a four-year-type of waiting. So, please do understand if they hold your hand tight, never would let you go because they will be afraid that they will lost you on the way. Assure that everything will be fine and those kisses and hugs will be returning to them in the end of April.

It will calm them down because just by a little bit of patience, just a little; happiness would wait for both of you.

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Between Two Angels

Nearly a year, you keep on waiting for her to come back and in between, “Will you be with me again?” is the norm conversation and having a silent answer from the other side to wrap it all up.

But sometimes, your heart does not want just a silent answer as you need to give and deliver passion of love which you keep on accumulating while waiting for her to return to you. So, in order to keep you sane, you search for the right person for you to empty the tank that has been overflow with unanswered questions; for which took another round of the full moon for her accepting one of things that might change her life too.

Being with her triggered the earlier girl whom you’re waiting all this while decided that she wants you back in her life; but it is a little too late. Nether less, she would wait as for you waited almost a year for her.

Perhaps the new relationship will be taking months from stranger in the start to stranger in the end; but the most hard decision is to whom you will devote yourself? You love, care and happy with both of them but since you are the prize, only one will be the winner.

A tough situation but time will show it to you; pray and make it happen.

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Crying

There would be a point in someone’s life that they could not bear all the things that being jumbled inside their chest.

They want to express it by words but sadly, there is no word which could describe and helping them to show what they want to convey. Only one option and it is the most effective way to do; cry.

Bursting our tears could help to ease all the burden, frustration, sadness or emotional burden that causing you into a fragile state. Ego aside, crying is the first thing that every human in this world did, so don’t be ashamed to do so.

Each of yours tears is priceless, so don’t let it fall down to the ground; collect it into a bile and by using the Pensive, you’ll know what is the real cause and try with all your might to fix it.

If it doesn’t, don’t be afraid to cry again.

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Dear Girlfriend

Dear girlfriend,

Thank you for accepting me into your heart, for letting me to love you, for making me the luckiest guy in the world and for having me able to craft myself around your love.

Dear girlfriend,

I know the insecurities that you’re having when I’m not around. Your wild imagination would whisper some stories about me and cause you to be worry about me. Here, I assure you that there is no possibility that I would walk away. I would put you as my priority in everything that I do. If I ever go out with someone, I’ll text, FourSquare-ed and even tweet about it so you can check up on me on random times to make sure you’re relief.

Dear girlfriend,

It is alright if you want to be clingy around me because it shows that I’m important. If you want to be clingy, don’t over do it. I will not be mad but I’ll be more clingier than you are so that you will loose. I want to be the winner in our relationship so you know that I’m serious about us and I won’t take you for granted.

Dear girlfriend,

Do take care and love yourself as how you love me. Every time I text you a long morning text, do reply even it is just a “K” just to know you’re still there in the end of the line. If you feel that I have made you upset, go and tell it straight to us because us, boys, are not born to understand silent treatment as we believe effective communication is the key of a long-term relationship.

Dear girlfriend,

Do learn to believe me because I already believe and putting my hope in you; as faith makes us stronger.

Dear girlfriend,

I love you with all my heart and nothing could tear us apart; except death.

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Words and Efforts

One does not simply confess to a girl without showing any effort to win her heart.

Effort is the key of making a girl would fall for you apart from beautiful words that you said to her because some girls are tired of empty hope, broken promises and shattered her heart caused by her past relationship.

Why does efforts play such an important role in chasing her?

By delivering efforts, it shows that you are serious to be with her, to commit yourself upon the next months that she will spend her time for and convincing her that what she experience within the past will not haunt her down as you will be her protector.

How does an effort can be materialize so she would notice it?

The secret is to know that the effort would go deep and touch her heart. Giving out efforts is not hard. The hardest part is the continuity of the effort despite she already chose you. A simple poem would do; but give it as a one off does not mean anything for a girl.

Write to her everyday without missing a day and be consistent as it would take time but before you know it; the girl of your dream will be with you on the aisle.

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Comfort of Silence

Remember those days when I tried to get your attention?

Which everyday I would try to spot you around and whenever you are in sight, I’ll talk to my friends, in a tone which you could hear in a distance, so you would notice me. It even cost me to do some crazy act just to tell you that I’m exist, that I’m around.

When I recall it again, it was a crazy act indeed but it’s worth it. You finally came up to me and asked me out. We texted, we Skype and within two months of flirting, we open up ourselves by confessed how we actually felt towards each other.

And now, here we are….sitting next to each other. No sound, no words. Just us holding hands together, kissing and cuddling as deep inside we understand each other without us saying it.

A beautiful end for us.

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Love Letter

Words are more than being utter between the lips and capture by the ears in which we’ll be amazed by the flawlessness of the sound, the rhythm, the whisper and the emotion that being embedded within it.

As someone would be afraid to say things towards their crush or to the person whom they adore; a love letter is and still the ultimate art of crafting the sentences word by word beautifully.

By taking a blank white paper and having a pen dancing on it; all the thoughts, expression and affection; which the current of black ink filling in the traces of tip point in every single moving line will create own masterpiece to be given to the lucky one.

Love letter is the efficient way upon convincing that special one that you really want to make them as part of your life, for them to be in the special place in your heart, for proving that you put an effort in order to win their attention and ending up being together for they are touched.

Perhaps some people would consider writing a letter is so yesterday when there is texting,e-mail, Instant Messaging, BBM, Twitter and Facebook as a medium to communicate with the special ones.

But then, they entirely forgot the strength of a hand written love letter which shows sincerity, passion, effort and time that being spent to write a beautiful verse that could triumph Shakespeare's.

If you believe in “love in first sight”, it doesn’t entirely refer about looks at all. Sometimes, it refers about something that you read and your heart will desire to those whom sent them a beautiful craft love letter. That is why Twilight and Dear John creates an impact as love letter touch their heart and give a sense of guarantee of the writer is truly sincere to win over their love.

Love letter is not entirely about the arrangement of the words nor the beauty beneath it; but it is rather about the personal touch and the soul embedded to create the sense of belonging and kinship between both writer and the reader; the admirer and the crush; from which it will lead to a beautiful story.

In the end, two people who once being just a stranger becoming a lover who would not live every single day without each other as the best part of themselves are each other.

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My Endless Love

A relationship happens when two person are in affection between themselves and decided, in order to prevent from loosing upon what they having, a promised to be exclusive for each other was made.

During the struggle to get our love ones, we performed our best in order to win their heart and when they do; slowly according to time; your passion and effort that you shown earlier, gone.

It is because we are secure about having them in your life until it doesn’t occur in your mind that perhaps one day they will leave you for no reason and in the end, you just not hurt yourself but also to those people who care about you.

And when you almost loose their grip, without you knew an interaction happened between the person that you love……and a person whom you did not know at all. Thus, insecurity shows up.

Hence, it will create an unstable relationship when one partner have this theory in her mind that her boyfriend doesn’t like her anymore just because she doesn’t feel an engagement happen.

Do not let the situation become worst by having them engaging more with the relationship-threat.. Talk and discuss upon which factor that each partner are lacking off instead of changing to a new partner which you did in the condition of desperation.

Because deep in our heart, we want to end up marrying the person who keep up making us laugh.

As assurance is important too, remember this..keep on saying it to the person you care about, “I love you”.

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Early Marriage

Seeing you walking along the aisle in the most beautiful white dress I’ve ever seen creates the warmth inside me. My heart beat fast as you getting closer to me and underneath those veil, I could see your smile that you’re trying to hide behind the winter wedding flowers that you hold with both hands.

As your father handed you to me, I could see tears in his eyes ready to shed but he refrain himself and I could see deep inside his eyes fighting the urge to not to do so; not in front of his daughter’s biggest day.

“Here by, we are all gather to see the these two young lovers unite underneath the trees of hope, future and happiness….” words by the Reverend starts to echoed throughout the hall. We face each other and give a deep stare while smiling as our dream is coming true.

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I still remember the moment I proposed you two months ago.

It is during that time when you; along with your friends who were also my accomplice; were enjoying the evening strolling in the park and I hid behind the maple tree which was near to the bench that your friends plan to sit.

When you were seems to enjoy having a conversation, I dialed your number which I secretly change my name inside your phonebook.

As the sound of your ringtone was playing, you quickly look for your phone and straight away look at the screen to see whose calling you but you couldn’t guess who as it stated “Will you marry me?” on the screen.

I tip-toed towards you whom still looking at the screen and on one knee, I proposed. You were shocked seeing me kneeing in front of you. It was an unexpected moment as I could tell by your reaction. Despite all of that, the word “Yes!” came out from your mouth and we hugged each other tightly after I put the ring through your finger.

You gave me colours in my life, giving me promises that you would love me forever, taught me to be brave facing the love that I might lost, love me when I’m afraid to love and you don’t let me standing alone facing all the challenge.

Thus, I promised to myself that I would do anything to make you mine; even though it cost me to marry you in such a young age.

“I know we are young and people might think that we’re making the wrong decision but trust me; we are 20 years old and we have another 50 years ahead to spend our life with each other.” while tears running from your eyes when you uttered it to me.

After listening what you’ve said, all my doubt suddenly goes away.

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“…………and you may kiss the bride” came out like magic when you said “I do” with the shimmering tiara sparkle by the sunray as God’s sign giving His blessing to us.

My heart pounded as I uncovered you from the veil and when I finally sees you, our lips sealed in seven heart beats; we are and finally together. Your dad who was holding back burst into tears followed by other people in the hall. It was our memorable moment that I would play it in my mind always.

Both of us knows that our journey will not be pretty since we are still studying yet somehow, we feel that it will be fine along the way because we know we have people who cares about us and having each other caring for ourselves.

Time has brought our heart to be one; sharing the same dream, giving our best effort. I will love you for a thousand years and will love you for a thousand more; which I know you will too.

Seeking For Love

Don’t search for love. Don’t accept anyone who passes by. Don’t give yourself easily just because you’re lonely.

Hang on, be patient and don’t make yourself desperate enough to search for it; because love are not Chrysanthemum flower which you can found and pluck easily by the roadside.

When the time is right, love will come to you and by then, you will deliver your best effort.

How do you know that love is there?

It is when you keep on smiling for no reason, your heart pound faster and always exited when the person is there. In shorts words; you yourself will tell you.

Good things will come to the people who wait, pray and hope.

Don’t seek for love as it will hurt you more and the person whom just accepted randomly.

Enough hurting yourself but hurting other people’s feeling? It is non-acceptable nor can be forgiven easily. So don’t start to do it.

Don’t force yourself to be in love; make yourself to fall in love.

You As Everything

Let me be in your beautiful dream; so you could wrap me in your arms and spend our time with cuddle and kisses.

Make me as someone that you will miss with every steps that you take; as every steps away from me will make myself miss you more and more.

I couldn’t walk, couldn’t breath and my heart beat weaken when you’re not within my reach as I always being touch by you.

Let not this feeling to go away as I like the sensation of adoring you; without you, I will not feel time passes by.

You’re just like a song in my heart; on repeat but I would never get tire of it.

Do be an air for me to breath on as you’re the reason I’m alive.

Only you.

When We Kiss

When we kiss,

I could feel your soft lips touches mine, both your hands caress my arms while mine running through your hair and embracing the waist. We felt our warm cool minty breath by each kisses that we give, that we receive, that we cherish.

When we kiss,

The time pause; leaving everything, everyone freezes in time. In that moment, there is only you and I; we felt each other presence, each other existence, each other passion; that made us cursing breathing for letting each other lips go.

When we kiss,

Our lips unite our soul together. In a split moment, we open ourselves to each other; giving the permission to find the shattered fragments and mend it so we could know the answer whether we are for each other.

When we kiss,

We forget the world as it is only you and I, sharing the same kiss, sharing the same moment, sharing the same feelings and sharing the same affection; because when we kiss, it is only for you and only you.

I Miss You, My Dear Ex

Seems that it has been months since we broke up but it’s still fresh in my mind. No, I’m not remembering the moment when you broke up with me but I reminiscing the beautiful memories that we once had, that we once shared.

My favourite part? It’s when we just kiss and hug each other in an empty room, waiting for you early in the morning just to touch your lips and saying the “3 words, 8 letters” to you.

Now, I missed being kiss and the care about someone whom I cared a lot more than myself; spending a lot for the phone just to make sure that you’re fine each day; sacrificed my time listening to you, about us, about insecure you are when I’m not there, about me having another “you”; but I assured you that you are my only, my words, my dedication, my commitments, my attention and my love; is only for you and you.

As I keeping my promises, you walk away; leaving me shedding with tears, as my heart tore apart and shattered to fine pieces in which it is impossible to be put together again.

As I keeping myself together, you enjoy your single life whilst keeping on saying that there’s no more love towards me which caused thousand of shards went straight deep into my bleeding heart.

As I beg, cried, asked and pled, you don’t even look back and say something to make me stand. Instead, you told me to forget about you, wash away all of our memories and get a new you.

As it is may seems easy for you to say those words and it is hard for me to do; I keep on waiting, keep on holding on and safe an empty space in my heart just for you; in case you would run coming back to me with those kisses and hug again.