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Crying

There would be a point in someone’s life that they could not bear all the things that being jumbled inside their chest.

They want to express it by words but sadly, there is no word which could describe and helping them to show what they want to convey. Only one option and it is the most effective way to do; cry.

Bursting our tears could help to ease all the burden, frustration, sadness or emotional burden that causing you into a fragile state. Ego aside, crying is the first thing that every human in this world did, so don’t be ashamed to do so.

Each of yours tears is priceless, so don’t let it fall down to the ground; collect it into a bile and by using the Pensive, you’ll know what is the real cause and try with all your might to fix it.

If it doesn’t, don’t be afraid to cry again.

Dating Your Friend’s Ex-Girlfriend

It is an unwritten the brotherhood code that you do not date each other’s ex-girlfriend because it is ethically wrong and betraying the mutual trust that both of you have developed during your friendship.

The situation would be much more worst if he is your good or best friend and he use the excuses of, “There are no more between both of you and it is not your right to tell her whom she could date or not”.

The idea of you, as that trusted friend, dating the same girl you know he shared strong emotional experiences with, seems very much like betrayal.

It is a hard pill to swallow from a friend, but a harder pill from a close friend.

It is quite the opposite if it is the guy who actually left the girl. Hence, it seems to be alright if you want to slither in and trying to engage with the girl of opening up a new chapter.

Here is a question for you. Let say that your friend and you are considered as influential and the girl left your friend because he is not that influential anymore; perhaps he move to another atmosphere; and she is running to you to seek help. From there you hook up. So what is the guarantee that she would not do the same thing if you loose your influence.

It is much complicated that you can ever think of. Thus, do respect the code and remember, there is a fine line between “I care about what I feel concerning my friend” and “Fuck it! I’m chasing his ex”.

10 Facial expression

HAPPY

 

A happy face does really will be brightened someone else’s day because it reflects a positive energy from the individual to other people. Therefore, a happy face creates a great momentum in every day’s life.

In this happy picture of me, it conjured up because I bought a pair of earphone that enables me to listen to my favourite songs. The quality of the sound that the earphone produces makes the song; U2 – It’s A Beautiful Day; gives me the vibe to make my day feel great. Thus, it rushes the adrenaline to spark my mind of having a photographic vision on how I will spend and having a productive day ahead.

Plus, people would not be hesitating to approach you since I reflect a great and positive vibe thanks to my happy facial expression.

Finally, in the end we had a great time laughing and being happy about it.

 SAD

I’m having a sad face because I just knew that one of my friends is talking bad about me behind my back and I felt hurt about it.

It is bad behavior of talking bad about people behind their back. It shows that the person who did it does not have the courage to be frank with that person. If there’s something wrong or you think that person has done something stupid, tell them straight to their face.

Plus, since I’m having a sad face, potentially it would ruin my day because my mind would be distracted of doing certain task and it could affect me in a way that I would not have a productive day.

Therefore, this incident would remind me to think before I utter any word that would hurt anyone’s feeling.

SURPRISE

I feel surprise because my parents gave me the phone that I have been craving for a long time; a Nokia 5800 XpressMusic; as my birthday present.

It really made my day because for me it is a huge big surprise because my parents never give anything for me during my birthday. I would take care of the phone really well since it has a sentimental value to me.

Sometimes surprises are in a form which will makes your bond towards the person who make it happen really much tighter and firmer than before in a sense of gratitude towards that person.

Surprise is good but sometimes you need to beware that there are certain people that are limited to a surprise. A good example is a person who is having a heart disease.

DISGUST

I’m having this disgusting facial expression because I just saw a person who sneeze and wipe his mucus on a dining table cloth.

I mean does this person have a sanitary issue or he has not been told to use a tissue instead.

His action actually spreading much more germs and it could be infecting to anyone who are near to that table since the mucus would evaporate and travel via air.

Furthermore, his action would reflect his characteristics since people would judge him from his action which awfully disgusting.

FEAR

This facial expression of fear or horror happens because I watch scary movie from my laptop. The title of the movie is Ju-On.

Everybody has their fear on something or towards someone. My fear is actually towards ghost. Yes, although people said that ghost does not exist but by watching many movies about ghost giving me the perception that ghost exist.

That is why I never walk alone in dark without my portable music player or any person who would walk along with me.

Hence, the fear could create a strong imprint even both for children and adult.

CONCENTRATING

I’m having a concentrating facial expression because I’m trying to remember something at the back of my head.

I also have this facial expression whenever I need to recall certain facts or points whenever my lecturer is asking my question.

It is hard to concentrate especially if there is disturbance such as noise that could make me very hard to give a full concentration of what need to be recall or paying attention towards the lecturer who are teaching in front of the class.

Some people would have different ways to concentrate if they try to recall something for example looking up, looking or looking at the side as it is the physiological response that our body.

Overall, concentrating is important especially to students because they can gather the input from the lecturer as optimum as they can.

 BLUR

Blur facial expression being reflect because my friend suddenly said something that out of the topic.

Plus, in the academic area, it is dangerous if I am blur because it shows that I don’t understand the message that are being delivered due to noise or anything that distracting my mind during the lecture.

Sometimes being blur is good because I will ask question whenever I do not understand certain topic.

When I am blur, I will try my best to do not make an assumption of any information that I’m quite confuse about because it is misleading to me and perhaps to other people when they ask the information from me.

ANGRY

I feel angry in this picture because my little brother spoilt my laptop. It is hard to do not being mad at him because after all it is an honest mistake.

But imagine the entire documents, assignment and presentation file that being kept in the computer cannot be access because the damage that has been done by my brother.

It took me a lot of days and effort to have my assignment and assessment being done; luckily this assignment is safe because I make a copy in my pendrive.

Certainly, I learn my lesson that I would make a back-up file if anything happen to my laptop.

 SMILE

I’m smiling because I remember the sweet memory that I had with my friends back at those times.

Smiling is another facial expression that could gives out positive vibes to other people other than happy. In fact, smiling and being happy has its own co-relation because when you are happy, you are automatically will smile.

It is easier to approach people who smile rather than put a long face because by smiling it reflects that the person is friendly and approachable.

In other words, smile is the mother of all magic.

WINCE

I wince because my ankle tripped on a piece of lego. It hurts real badly because it’s a sudden and flash pain which I have to endure.

Physical pain sometimes is much less hurtful that inner pain which unbearable to any person exist.

The best teacher around is experience and the best experience is pain because you will be hurt and may go down. But according to time, you’ll be able to walk again and if the pain reappears again, you know on how to deal with it.

There is many types of pain and each of them have different level on how hurtful it is but in the end, people get their lesson.

Every bit of memory

I’m sorry to you guys for ain’t updating this blog in a while. Blame the exam and the paperwork that I need to do throughout the entire week.

Right now, there’s lot of things which are currently being playing in my mind. Either you like it or not, I’ll try to express every issue that I want to say right now and trust me, it can be quite personal.

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All this while those three girls and I were the most closest people in the group that I called “The Elite Club”. We usually have our lunch together with the groups and even when we finished with our class, we would have our tea time together or if it is already late due to night class or even a debate training, we would conjured together for dinner at the canteen.

But it lasted until two semesters only.

It all change when one of them started to have a relationship. Quietly and slowly, she become more further away from us. I still remember her quote saying that '”..I appreciate my friends more than boyfriend (if I have one)..”. Although she’s still hanging out with us but it only happen in a few occasion. Three times in two weeks if I my calculation is right. So it only left two of them together with me.

Due to a certain academic issue, one of them have to back off from the tertiary education. I was like seems lost for a while since she is the most closest girl with me. It like you lost a twin. So there is just one left.

And recently, I officially lost her due to the fact that she also start to have a boyfriend plus the previous girl whom return to the tertiary education also got herself a boyfriend which makes me……seems gone.

I dated so many girls in the campus but yet, I can’t recall on ANY occasion that I actually left them out. When I think of it all over again, I NEVER DO IT!!! EVEN ONCE!!! So much of the words that they uttered few semesters ago.

People do and does change. Yes, I do realise that but if the change gave a negative effect to me, I wouldn’t accept it. I’m a man of my word and I kept others promise; every single word that came out from their mouth; I do took it seriously. But since all three of them eventually falls to their own world already, perhaps I’ll just be an observer. See the situation and their life from afar and if anything bad happening to them, I’ll be there.

Yes, you and they could say that I already have so much of girls around my life. It’s true, indeed. But the feeling being around them isn’t the same as being around with you guys. Did you ever realized that?

I don’t blame the first girl-friend because she tends to go home after having the class. Where as for the second girl-friend, she already got a new circle with her; BAD ONES whom always influenced her to do something stupid; even she try to deny the fact but it is obvious. As for the third-girlfriend, she’s right now along with her boyfriend, as I see is leading towards to the “social outcast” status.

Why do I said that? Both of them try to control each other by not letting any guy or girl approach each other. I mean, even the boyfriend told off one of their male friend who actually helping those two to become a couple.

Love tends to make people blind and it is now applicable to the second and third girl-friends.

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For The Elite Club circle, let us see our journey down the memory lane throughout the semesters before you guys hit to pursue your degree.

Warning: It may bring back some issue

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On a separate issue, my parents would not allow me to go to represent UiTM Sarawak in debate after the exam. They said it is not an academic issue for me thus is not important.

I said to them, “Well, do you expect me to sit at the house and babysit for this whole one month!? What do I gain? Nothing!!!”.

And my mum came up with what she thinks a solution. “Okay, I give you green light to go but don’t expect us to give you pocket money to go there…”.

And I was like……”What!?”.

I mean, there’s nothing is what I could a sense of pride in their voice of having a son represent his university in a tournament.

Why?

Because they think that having me as the only English speaker in the house tends to make me like an “Englishman-wannabe” and try to be in the category of trying to be an “up” person.

In their eyes, speaking English is just to pass the exam and other than that is just for showing off that you actually can speak English.

Luckily I already brainwash my siblings to accept English as a way of the communication in the house.

Yet, about the “no-pocket-money-if-I-go-debating-in-West-Malaysia” is still an issue from me. *Sigh*

Pejabat Kolej & I

Ladies and gentleman, please be ready for my usage of language after following this conversation below.

I really do not want to speak like this but due to the feelings that I must express, it indeed really help me to express it in the exact way that I want.

Bare in mind that I'm not the type of person who want to use this way writing but I have to; for the first time Black has to obey the todays blogging style among Malaysian teens.

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I just arrived at home feeling tired plus aching all over and I'm just having a short nap until my phone rang.

Pejabat Kolej: Hello, ini Muhammad Rahman ke?

Me: Ya, saya.

Pejabat Kolej: Ini dari pejabat kolej. Boleh saya tahu awak berada di mana sekarang ni?

Me: Saya sekarang berada di rumah. Ada emergency case.

Pejabat Kolej: Emergency case? Boleh saya tahu apa itu?

Me: Saya terpaksa jaga adik saya cause semua orang tidak ada kat rumah (half-true).

Pejabat Kolej: Awak tahu hari ini awak buat apa kan?

Me: Saya tahu. Saya perlu buat clearence hari ni.

Pejabat Kolej: Dah tu kalau awak dah tahu kenapa awak tak buat?

Me: Saya minta maaf sangat-sangat. Saya bukan sengaja.

Pejabat Kolej: Jadi, awak nak buat macam mana ni?

Me: Kalau saya bayar denda saja boleh?

Pejabat Kolej: Kalau macam tu, saya tanda awak tak clearence lah macam tu.

Me: Errmmm okay. Jadi denda tu RM10 kan?

Pejabat Kolej: Kita lihatlah macam mana nanti okay.

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I mean wtf bunyi statement akhir dialog itu macam nak ugut orang. Macam la kita bunuh orang or threatening people.

Aku bukannya sengaja tak nak clearence cuma masa sememangnya tak mengizinkan aku berbuat begitu hatta aku dah buat temu janji dengan pihak pejabat kolej macam sial tu!

Korang pun tahu yang aku bukannya seseorang yang suka memungkiri janji. Tapi disebabkan praktikal aku yang membuatkan aku letih macam sial (tapi ada masa untuk blogging kat Coffeebean) dan langsung tidak ada orang untuk menjaga adik aku kat rumah, semua tu berada di atas bahu aku.

Remember, FAMILY FIRST!

Dengar tak tu you fucking pejabat kolej!

Ha, kan dah kena sumpah dengan aku.

Padan muka.

P/S: Aku akan try to settle things up by this Friday kalau dapat.