Page 343 of 366

A Cry of A Gemini

A Scorpio once said, “I’m afraid of a lot of things but mostly, most sincerely, I’m afraid of being unraveled by you and you finding nothing you want in here.”

For Gemini, these words have a lot of meaning behind it. First, it shows that how Scorpio have the fear of loosing someone that she loves and in many occasion to other Scorpios, they let this feeling slips inside and causing it to grow every time the insecure rises.

Thus, it leads to the love towards their partner starting to fade slowly to oblivion. Without their acknowledgement, the lost of love and passion is just pseudo. It is not washed away because of Scorpio herself but merely by the existence of cannibalistic cut, insecurity and jealousy.

Secondly, a Scorpio will try as best as she could, with all her might to make the relationship to work out. But sometimes, in the initial stage of the relationship, their partner still try to catch up upon the unique complexity of a Scorpio, until by the time their already figure it out, Scorpio runs out through the door assuming that she failed them due to the partner did not show to her a symbol, a sign or an expression of worthiness and galore to having her as their half.

Despite all of the perception made by Scorpio, a Gemini could see it through because one gift a Gemini have are the ability to foresee what will happen, the gift of an excellent analytical emotionize thinking and the strength of going through a very delicate moment. So as Scorpio winding her way to apt of endless, Gemini pulled her hand and lay her on his back while Gemini struggling thorough the streams of hopeless end.

He never give up upon of what he believes in despite the other stars telling Scorpio that it would not work; that the gravity pull will loose its tension upon the believe of love. As Scorpio like to keep things that hurting her to herself, she will never conceal it to others except for Gemini; but in an indirectly way. If Gemini could read the sign or if he unable to, it is totally up to him. Scorpio would not tell him no matter how worst the situation has become.

Therefore, a Gemini would fall into a slump and on that instant, Scorpio would let go her arms around Gemini’s neck and make a run through the open door. But a dearly Gemini knows it. By using his determination, his foot make a leap using the pit wall and land just right in front of the door and almost bump into her where one foot of Scorpio have step out of the door.

There is no turning back. One tries to leave and one tries to prevent it from happening. The stars sparkling in the sky uttering the mantra to encourage Scorpio from leaving the room and in that tension, Gemini able to grab the door and shut it causing the Scorpio’s one-outside-leg to slides in.

Gemini tells Scorpio that he is there for good and would be there for Scorpio as she tries to push him away. She is done she said. She is tired she said. Suddenly, Gemini pulls out a knife made of unicorn’s horn and stabbing himself right in the gut. He tells Scorpio not to panic as what he wanted to do is to gives out half of his heart, passion and love to fill in the hollow caused by cannibalistic feeling.

As Scorpio slowly putting it inside, she says that she would gives up herself Gemini but with condition. Once he commit the sin that caused Scorpio running to the door, there will be no looking back. No more.

Gemini hug her as he is in tears mark his words that it would never happen again because unlike the others who failed with other Scorpios, he was able to figure out the omen between the border of too late and just in time.

He will remember. He will commit. He will treat Scorpio with comfort, love, passion and the most important and the most essential; believe. Believing upon her, believing in the relationship, believing in forever.   

10 Facial expression

HAPPY

 

A happy face does really will be brightened someone else’s day because it reflects a positive energy from the individual to other people. Therefore, a happy face creates a great momentum in every day’s life.

In this happy picture of me, it conjured up because I bought a pair of earphone that enables me to listen to my favourite songs. The quality of the sound that the earphone produces makes the song; U2 – It’s A Beautiful Day; gives me the vibe to make my day feel great. Thus, it rushes the adrenaline to spark my mind of having a photographic vision on how I will spend and having a productive day ahead.

Plus, people would not be hesitating to approach you since I reflect a great and positive vibe thanks to my happy facial expression.

Finally, in the end we had a great time laughing and being happy about it.

 SAD

I’m having a sad face because I just knew that one of my friends is talking bad about me behind my back and I felt hurt about it.

It is bad behavior of talking bad about people behind their back. It shows that the person who did it does not have the courage to be frank with that person. If there’s something wrong or you think that person has done something stupid, tell them straight to their face.

Plus, since I’m having a sad face, potentially it would ruin my day because my mind would be distracted of doing certain task and it could affect me in a way that I would not have a productive day.

Therefore, this incident would remind me to think before I utter any word that would hurt anyone’s feeling.

SURPRISE

I feel surprise because my parents gave me the phone that I have been craving for a long time; a Nokia 5800 XpressMusic; as my birthday present.

It really made my day because for me it is a huge big surprise because my parents never give anything for me during my birthday. I would take care of the phone really well since it has a sentimental value to me.

Sometimes surprises are in a form which will makes your bond towards the person who make it happen really much tighter and firmer than before in a sense of gratitude towards that person.

Surprise is good but sometimes you need to beware that there are certain people that are limited to a surprise. A good example is a person who is having a heart disease.

DISGUST

I’m having this disgusting facial expression because I just saw a person who sneeze and wipe his mucus on a dining table cloth.

I mean does this person have a sanitary issue or he has not been told to use a tissue instead.

His action actually spreading much more germs and it could be infecting to anyone who are near to that table since the mucus would evaporate and travel via air.

Furthermore, his action would reflect his characteristics since people would judge him from his action which awfully disgusting.

FEAR

This facial expression of fear or horror happens because I watch scary movie from my laptop. The title of the movie is Ju-On.

Everybody has their fear on something or towards someone. My fear is actually towards ghost. Yes, although people said that ghost does not exist but by watching many movies about ghost giving me the perception that ghost exist.

That is why I never walk alone in dark without my portable music player or any person who would walk along with me.

Hence, the fear could create a strong imprint even both for children and adult.

CONCENTRATING

I’m having a concentrating facial expression because I’m trying to remember something at the back of my head.

I also have this facial expression whenever I need to recall certain facts or points whenever my lecturer is asking my question.

It is hard to concentrate especially if there is disturbance such as noise that could make me very hard to give a full concentration of what need to be recall or paying attention towards the lecturer who are teaching in front of the class.

Some people would have different ways to concentrate if they try to recall something for example looking up, looking or looking at the side as it is the physiological response that our body.

Overall, concentrating is important especially to students because they can gather the input from the lecturer as optimum as they can.

 BLUR

Blur facial expression being reflect because my friend suddenly said something that out of the topic.

Plus, in the academic area, it is dangerous if I am blur because it shows that I don’t understand the message that are being delivered due to noise or anything that distracting my mind during the lecture.

Sometimes being blur is good because I will ask question whenever I do not understand certain topic.

When I am blur, I will try my best to do not make an assumption of any information that I’m quite confuse about because it is misleading to me and perhaps to other people when they ask the information from me.

ANGRY

I feel angry in this picture because my little brother spoilt my laptop. It is hard to do not being mad at him because after all it is an honest mistake.

But imagine the entire documents, assignment and presentation file that being kept in the computer cannot be access because the damage that has been done by my brother.

It took me a lot of days and effort to have my assignment and assessment being done; luckily this assignment is safe because I make a copy in my pendrive.

Certainly, I learn my lesson that I would make a back-up file if anything happen to my laptop.

 SMILE

I’m smiling because I remember the sweet memory that I had with my friends back at those times.

Smiling is another facial expression that could gives out positive vibes to other people other than happy. In fact, smiling and being happy has its own co-relation because when you are happy, you are automatically will smile.

It is easier to approach people who smile rather than put a long face because by smiling it reflects that the person is friendly and approachable.

In other words, smile is the mother of all magic.

WINCE

I wince because my ankle tripped on a piece of lego. It hurts real badly because it’s a sudden and flash pain which I have to endure.

Physical pain sometimes is much less hurtful that inner pain which unbearable to any person exist.

The best teacher around is experience and the best experience is pain because you will be hurt and may go down. But according to time, you’ll be able to walk again and if the pain reappears again, you know on how to deal with it.

There is many types of pain and each of them have different level on how hurtful it is but in the end, people get their lesson.

When your best friend fall for you

Today, it is a norm that a girl have a best friend who is a boy and vice versa. This is because the similarities in them doesn’t distinguish either you are a boy or even if you are a girl.

The term of a friend derived when you have a lot of things in common and you are comfortable with that particular person; leading to a fact that you can discuss and talk almost about everything.

For a girl, when you have a guy as your best friend, it is really coming in handy especially when you asking for their help to move heavy stuff from another place to another or even seeking an advice from guys point of view.

You have so much fun with him, sharing almost everything and doing activities together everyday until this one particular sentence comes out from his mouth, “I like you; a lot. I like you more than a friend” or even any words that utter out from his mouth which have the same meaning as earlier on.

Then, you will have this dilemma of;

1. Accepting him as for you too share the same feeling.

2. Try to say “No” due to you do not have any feeling towards him

For No. 1, there is no problem in that because there will be no one that will be hurt by your action; taking into account it is only involving both of you.

But as for No. 2, you will be in a deep shit of dilemma because you will have more than “losing a friend”; you will loose another person in your life.

Due to that, on how you want to tackle the problem in the very first place? That is why ladies, you need to read this post from till the end.

There are some few steps involved.

First, you must know the reason on why he have the feeling on you at the first place.

There are TWO reasons on why he have the “unacceptable-feeling-to-you”. Mainly, he doesn’t have any option or even you spend too much time with him or it could be combination of both.

I have a friend, Sandra. She have a guy friend who fall for her and he confessed his feelings for her hoping for Sandra gives the answer but Sandra told her that she need him as her friend; not the other way but that guy keep on holding to imaginary hope hoping one day she would accept him. Since they have been friends long time before they hook up, nether less to say that he already knew her family including her parents.

Either it is sending her to a place in the town or do the lawn, her boyfriend willingly to do it for her even she kept on refusing his help because it looks like she is using him and even though she already told him on false hope that he put on, he kept on saying that “the day would come”.

The guy have all of these values to be a girl’s boyfriend; good look, smart, multi-talent etc. but it just doesn’t feel right for Sandra.

Alas, she met Mike. He have all the values same as friend but the feelings for Mike is more than a friend and that is attraction. Only Mike have the affection trigger to her and that is the reason on why she dated Mike.

As for her guy friend, although he already his best to capture Sandra’s attention but it is already too late. One problem with Sandra is that she didn’t have the heart to tell him about Mike out of empathy. In the end of the day, she dated Mike but having a guy friend ;who is already almost loose the “friend” status in front of her eyes as she now doesn’t know who is he now; who are trying hard to impress her without knowing his hope already being shattered all over the place.

So, what is the problem? The problem is within Sandra’s guy friend who only see her as the only girl in his eyes without even bother to look to other girl saying try to be loyal. The more he tend to look Sandra as his option and only option, eventually his chances to seek different as options will be decrease.

Due to the fact that Sandra doesn’t have the feeling for him, thus it is okay for him to check out other girl given him made out the effort to do so. But sometimes people could be stubborn and perhaps he would try to do not having or pushing other girl away from his eyes and heart because he want to remain Sandra as the only one in his heart so that he would not “cheat” his feeling towards her.

What Sandra can do is helping him out from his world of his to the reality. On how he would do this is easy. Ask him out and at the same time make sure you have other female friends to be with you. It is much more helpful if the friends are talkative and friendly so that it could create a fraction of spark in his friend. By using subtle words, tell him that the friend of yours is very interesting person and try to ask him to accompany her if she wants to buy something from the near shop or to the ladies room that cause her being separated from the group. Use the excuse of “be a gentleman” to him to push him to accompany friend of yours. Since he have a feeling towards you, he will do as you say even he is quite hesitate.

From there he or she might open-up into a conversation and by the time both of them return, he have the tendency to talk to almost of the people in that one particular group.

How this could help? By doing so, you help him to open up his mind to options and definitely pushing you away from the “only option” status. Even it does looks small, but in the long run it will erode the feeling towards you.

Another method you could use is particularly a little bit cruel but it does works.

When you are with him; much more encourage if there is other friends around,; try to mention something about your dream guy quality. A very good example is, “I love guys with dimple. It makes me like *rolling eyes*”. Note that you use the term of “love” rather than using “like" for a fact that guys doesn’t feel enough threaten if the girl use the word “like”. According to time, if you continue to mentioned about that thing; maybe twice a day; he couldn’t bare with it and he will degrade himself from your dream-quality-guy.

As a bonus, if there’s any friend whom ask you a question about if you have feeling for that guy friend of yours, you make a big “X” using your hands. It is much more better if he himself is there because it is a very good subtle way to convey your actual rebel towards him.

As for the second reason, you spend too much time with him. Psychologically, when a guy spend more time with you more than other girls even if you are just one of his best; worst if you are his best friend; he would have an emotional attach towards you.

What is emotional attach?

An emotional attachment is simply where you build a bond with somebody or a friendship with somebody and as time passes you grow closer to that person emotionally (that person does not need to be growing closer to you in return; it just depends). When this closeness gets to a stage where you trust this person more than other people and you want to spend more time with this person, this implies that you are becoming emotionally attached. In my opinion, emotional attachment is more of an illustration as to how good a relationship with somebody is. Emotional attachment may be how much you care about someone, trust someone, etc, but most of us already know that. I think of the level of emotional attachment you have towards someone as being an indicator of the success of your relationship with that person (whether he/ she is a friend, partner, parent, work-mate, etc).

Hence, you need to have a less time with him; in other words try to create distance between both of you. By doing so, it could reduce the emotional attach of his towards you but it does takes time and it works. Maybe to do not make it quite obvious, try to just spend some time with him less than before and perhaps finally both of you just having lunch to spend your time but it is much more better if you could gather along some of your friends so that you would go for your lunch in a crowd; not to mention to do not make the action obvious.

So here it is ladies. All the steps that you need to know on how to prevent or kick away the feeling of your guy best friend romance feelings towards you.

Try it! You’ll love it.

They are what is you

Friends are important. There are friends to hang-out, for group studying even there is friends for watching football together.

But the thing that I want to highlight here is the people whom you are mingle with.

Without you realizing it, the will reflect on what you will become. Either it will affect your attitude, characteristic or even your future path.

Thank God, through the entire journey of my life I’ve been stumbled upon people who really made me what I am today.

I was just an ordinary boy, thinking immaturely and always gave childish act or answer. You will feel astonish on how this bunch of people taught me the meaning of life; from my taste of music, food, place, ideology etc.

Unfortunately, not all of us as lucky as I am. Loads of them ended up with a bunch of bastards who only know the meaning of”LET’S ENJOY AND HAVE FUN 24/7” without thinking the consequences and the effect to their friends.

They taught you something which is really bad indeed without teaching you the good substance to make it balance; at least mine did.

It is really sad indeed seeing somebody that you really care so much change and it keep on changing themselves in the name of “Because they’re my friends.”.

Perhaps these bunch of people just sees you as a ticket to a goldmine or even a back stage package. Let see if you have those thing at the first place; would they actually want to approach you at the beginning?

Yet, lot of people when they meet up with new friends they tend to leave the old ones even without realizing them doing it. Giving an excuses such as “I need to care about my new friends feeling too…” isn’t acceptable especially when the old friends knew you way more longer than the new “ones”.

Hence, sometimes we must be aware of these matter because by choosing your social circle, it is either you end up JUST LIKE THEM or realizing it before it’s too late.

Good vs. Evil

Along my way to put up the notice for the next public debate which is look like this:-

Then, I noticed a notice beside one of the notice that I put up which looks like this:-

Hence, which will attrack

which?

Don't know what to do

So I'll spare the selection for the ASEAN debate in the next post.

Hence basically, Swinburne and me suppose to return to Kuching 7.40 p.m yesterday. But since the selection is extended to 8 p.m that night, so with the help of Azmilah, Paul and Mdm. Afidah, we're able to have a second flight at 11.40 a.m the very next day.

What I'm going to write is something is personally to me is the most bullshit deep shit fucking thing that ever happened in my life.

I was felt quite devastated yesterday since I'm just being alone throughout the day before the written test for the selection; yes, they do have written test for the selection. FUCK!!! WHY I TALKED ABOUT THE SELECTION!!!!

Today, the our flight were waiting for us but the FUCKING thing here is the transportation of UiTM to send us to the airport were having a BIG SHIT miscommunication. They waited for us at Kolej Jati where as we are waiting at Kolej Perindu!

It's already 10.00 a.m but the transportation hasn't arrive yet so we call Hafiz and he sent us to the airport.

Iqhbal Hafis sending us to the airport

By the time we arrived at the airport, the gate to the flight has closed. We're actually quee up at the wrong flight and that cost us a lots of time to know what we are already to late.

We called Hafis whom are busy with the Novis Cup and we told him what happened. He told us to go to UiTM Shah Alam from the LCCT but we don't have any money left!!!

Swinburne and me being stranded in LCCT

I called my parents and they try all their best right now (by the time I wrote this) to manage things up. My mother banked in RM100 to Swinburne's account since I don't have any ATM card.

Now, I'm here in LCCT being hungry, confused, angry, sad and all those stuff. I'll update what will happen next.

P/S: Now I think the lecturers do learn their lesson to do not let the students alone to do the travelling. And I'm right now is on the peak level of homesick!!!!! I miss my home...*cry*

All things are going back to normal again….I think

Last week is the most troublesome week I’ve ever had. Not just have all the people around me almost-pull-the-trigger to hate me but I do jeopardize them in such a way that it made me feel really unmotivated throughout the week until I have to cancelled the debate training on Thursday without Swinburne’s authorization *sorry Swin*. But the past is the past and all I have to do right now is look at it and try to do not do the same thing again. It’s precious I could say.

Sorry I have to break my promise to update the blog at least once in every two days due to some internal problems (which I think you already know). But from now on I’ll try my best to update all of the three blogs which are under my management. I hope Fuad and Maisarah do help me by updating TEC site as well. It has been a hell load of work from me. Externally and internally exhausted, I shall continue with my plan.

Hey, it’s already March! I keep on forgetting that I’m in a new month hence more efficient work to do. The reason that makes me kept on being busy is where the time synchronization is just “right”. Meaning by all of the stuff that I’ve been doing is almost overlapping. Thank God there are people whom I can count on during those moments. In the next post, maybe I’ll do what Faradiba and her friend did; stating and listing what they do, what they did throughout the whole week and month. From there you will know how busy I am, no matter what kind of stuff that I occupied with.

Personally, I think it is what I so called “the debater curse”. Did you realize; you guys who are debaters no matter what universities or campuses; your life totally change after you joined TDC? Maybe before this you are nobody or merely a number of people know you and having such a free-time-moments after you finish your class. But after you become a debater, suddenly the whole burden of assignments, research, presentation, life obstacles, matter-which-are-not-concern-to-you and what-are-the-things-that-made-me-busy-all-suddenly-which-I-do-
not-know-what-I-am-busy-about are on your shoulders? Hence, I advised to all debaters out there if you want to attract people to join TDC, please DO-NOT-IN-WHAT-EVER-THINGS-OR-LIFE-THREATENING-SITUATION you mention about this curse or they will back off. I mean the burden will not come in a pile in a jiffy but it will slowly come to you and by the accordance of time, it will pile up more than come-in-a-pile-in-a-jiffy. So debaters; between you and me; shut the things up.

For this week, for the first time ever I just stayed at home for one day. Mind you that my course in UiTM were having their “Family Day” which apparently I didn’t go due to the fact that I’m a busy person; no time to enjoy myself; and also I need to take care of the house especially my brothers (seven of them) and my little sister because my parents are having their business to attend which make them have to leave the house for 2 days. Since I’m the ONLY elder brother which my parents can count on, therefore I leave all the stuff behind and went back home. But suddenly, on my first day Zureen called me stating that she wanted to see me. By leaving my duty to my father whom came home that time and my usu, I went back to UiTM seeking for Yaya and Zureen.

That Saturday night, apparently there is an occasion of “Battle of The Band” in conjunction with “Malam Gala Gading”. That night, I went there with B.J and his friends but unexpectedly I sat together with Jesse, Asma and Kaka. After I accompanied the girls back to their dorm block, I went back to Youth Floor and waited for Yaya before she called me to meet at the road between the canteen and Dewan Jubli. From there; exception to Zureen’s kept-on-interupting; Yaya and me talk and we already resolved the matter. Almost of the girls in the world, I wouldn’t sacrifice, burden and jeopardize my friendship with Yaya, Zureen nor Hana. They are my trustful and true female friends ever. They are meant a lot to me then I meant to them.

So I’ve heard the rumour that for the next “Family Day” that my classmates want to select me as the Project Manager due to the fact that they are quite pissed that I actually didn’t come for the Family Day since 3 semesters ago. Yes people, starting in Part 1 until Part 3 (now), I didn’t bother go even once. So by that, they want to increase my burden. First thing first, it is not that I don’t want to handle the project but people; I’M A BUSY BOY. Due to this fact, you actually want my commitment towards this stuff which apparently most of you know that I might do not get 100% commitment towards these things. People, come on and grow up. Please do not put the project at stake because it involves big budgets and a huge number of people. It involves the whole Ladang course for goodness sake. Either you listen to me or not, do not blame the outcome.

Hence, I’m looking forward to the things that might happen this week and like I said to myself when I’m in a tight, tense, out-of-time and stress moments, “I’ll manage”.