Crush Heartbreak

We as human, we cannot stop ourselves from having a crush with a person and for any reason we don’t mind to let it linger in our mind; and inside our heart too.

Don’t lie when I said that even though you’re in a relationship, your feelings towards your crush still remain down there; deep in the heart, on the surface of the most bottoms. As you commit to your relationship, there would be one moment that you will think about them; dreaming the unreachable yet it’s dreamable. Thinking about them creates that warmth your heart, dilutes your mind to the sea of imaginary and ending up smiling for that one split second.

That is the power of crush; just having them in your mind could just make you feel alright; despite your partner has made you upset or when you’re lonely yet they are not there for you.

But it is a total different thing for a person who does have a crush but they themselves is still and remain, single. Hence, day by day, the person would dream about their crush; checking their Facebook profile, reading their tweets and took note on every single detail about them. And when the crush did something good to them; no matter how small and simple it is; it would totally made their day.

We always have that one imagination playing in my mind; having the crush being our love ones. Which afterwards, you would giggle in excitement; putting pillow on your face while turning your body left and right on the bed. It would be the most wonderful feeling if it would become true; no more that you want to ask from God except for the chance to be with them.

It is all fine until the crush have found someone else. Our heart sank, the dreams shattered and a jealousy sparks to that lucky person whom able to capture the crush’s heart. Yet, you smile to them, congratulate them and hope them for the best as deep inside; your heart has been smashed.

Perhaps it’s our fault for not making the move or for not to have it clear that we like them but at least, on the very least, we know that our crush is happy with the person they care, that they love.

And the most hurtful thing?

It is when we say to them; “I’ll be there for you, no matter what happen, I’ll be there for you” while inside we’re picking up the shattered pieces that would not be the same again.