Tuesday, March 31, 2009

My new lappy....

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you....*drumroll*

My new lappy!!!!!!

Compaq CQ20-317TU
* Intel® Core™2 Duo processor T6400 (2.0GHz 800 MHz FSB, 2 MB L2 Cache)
* 2048MB 800MHz / max to 4GB* DDR2 Memory (2048 x 1 pcs)

* 320GB Hard Disk

* 12.1" TFT WXGA high definition widescreen LCD panel with brightview technology
* DVD+/–R/RW Double Layer Drive with LightScribe
* Bluetooth

* Wireless 802.11b/g
* Freedos
* Mobile Intel® GM45 Express chipset
* Intel® Graphics Media Accelerator x4500 (shared)
* ExpressCard/34 slot

* Stereo Speakers
* High Speed 56K modem

* Integrated 10/100/1000 Gigabit LAN

* Touchpad with 2 way scroll bar
* 3 USB 2.0, HDMI, VGA, RJ-11, RJ-45, 1 Headphone, 1 Microphone,
Compaq Webcam with integrated Digital Microphones
* Integrated SD/MMC card reader

* Standard 4-cell(37Whr)
* 29.6 x 22.6 x 2.8cm (min height)/ 3.6 (max.height)

* With 4 cell battery – 1.68kg
* One year International Limited Warranty (parts/labor/carry-in)
* Free Nylon Carrying Case

Finally, after craving a new laptop since last year and having my eyes on this baby really made feel the happiest person indeed.

FYI, this is the upgrade version from it previous predecessor, CQ20-213TU which the contradict of both model is the old model use T5800 2.0GHz processor, 250GB HD and 1GB RAM.

Where as if you see from the specification above it has T6400 2.0 GHz processor, 320HD and 2GB RAM.

Maybe for the non-computer literate people will ask, "What difference does it make?"

Let me tell you, "It owes big time!!!!"

Higher power processor = Can do multi-tasking job smoothly
Higher HD capacity = More movies, music, pictures & software to be kept
Higher RAM capacity = Ensure the programme that you're running would run smoothly

I asked my father to buy a new laptop according to my specification and model due to the fact that my Dell D600 lappy are in it's 40s. So you guys will know what type of technology I have before I got my hand on this new sunshine.

Plus, knowing he just buy stuff without consulting me; take during the time he bought me the old laptop; could have myself in a great depression due to the fact the laptop that the bought are just expensive but lack in ability to do tasks. That is why when I bring the issue of a new laptop to my father, I told him, "Do not buy yet. Wait for me to give the model, specs and the price; then you'll buy". I know it sounds harsh. But hey, buying laptop is a long-term investment and also I wan to make sure that my father spend his money towards stuff which is rather a deal to the value that he invest. Besides, he's my father. I do not want him to spend his money on something which will make me say, "What a waste".

For four days in a row I had to call my computer dealer to know the update of the new lappy and they always answer me that it will arrive before the end of March. Well, you know what? It did!!!!

I have to took a bus all the way from Kota Samarahan to Wisma Saberkas and luckily there is the last bast which return back to Kota Samarahan. At that same night, I have to stay up till 9.30 a.m in the morning; yes, 9.30 a.m; just to transfer the whole files from two-weeks-of-Farah's-laptop-being-borrowed-by-me to my new lappy.

I tried to connect both laptop using UTP cable to make my file transfer quite easy but unfortunately, I failed due to the lack of knowledge on how to do that.

After it is all done, I went to my class and whole my female classmate were saying, "OMG, Black! It's so cute!!!!"

The lappy is cute!? How but the owner?

Suddenly I think my lappy will draw the attention of the girls, not me....

Saturday, March 28, 2009

IQ & love...

Yesterday I went to UNIMAS having my IQ test with Mohammad. All I can say it’s quite relaxing but a little bit of stress at the same time. What IQ test? I’ll tell you.

Last week, Mohammad called me because he needs a subject to do on to his research since he takes Bachelor of Psychology. Basically his researches study the level of IQ of a person. Since his lecturer needs the subjects to be a university student, I’m the first name that popped in his head.

After we agreed on the date; which was yesterday, he fetched me up from UiTM and we headed to UNIMAS where the test going to be held. It’s Mohammad conduct the test. Earlier, he noted me that there is no right or wrong. It’s just a test to examine my IQ extension level.

We finished the test around one hour. But I felt weird to see Mohammad facial expression after we’d done. Without asking, he told me that normally the test could take up around two till three hours and the way I answered the questions does really amazed him.

Overall, I do take the test seriously because I want to know either I am a stupid or a clever person indeed. That is why I feel quite a bit of satisfied from his comment but the real result will come out next week. Subsequently, I’ll know where I do stand.

Now let aside the test.

Recently, this blog became quite popular. Not just to UiTM Sarawak but also to UiTM Kedah because from the web counter, I detect their IP address and let me tell you, I feel quite weird about having people from other campus reading my blog. Don’t ask me why because I don’t have the answer.

Little by little, the real of me before this start to picking it up itself right now but unfortunately, the exam are getting nearer thus I need to revise to my academic book. Not knowing girls. Plus, my status right now is single but not available. It’s due to the fact that I’m in the way of knowing someone and let me tell you that she’s hard to get.

Just pray for me aite!!!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Stamps and its effectiveness

Since the beginning of this week, everyone in the campus is quite busy to obtain which is the second important matter after their pointer. That ladies and gentlemen and fellow students is the obligation to obtain the stamps for their activity cards.

Maybe I ought to give you a brief explanation about the stamps. In UiTM Sarawak, the students must fill up their activity card with certain stamps category to eligible them to have a room for next semester. Those stamps categories are University stamp, Club stamp and College stamp.

Students only receive the University stamp if they involve in any events which are in the class of university activities. Same goes to the other stamps which the students need to occupy themselves to entitle a single stamp for a single activity.

This phenomenon is common every semester in UiTM Sarawak. Since the over-populated students in the campus, the current numbers of rooms are not more capable of to accommodate those excessive students.

But I need to remind that the problem which already been mentioned above are only applicable towards female students. This is due to the number female students are exceeding the number of dormitories for the girls themselves.

Hence; personally I think; the implementation of the activity stamps are only applicable just for female students. I know it sounds sexist and bias but when you look at the truth, this is the current situation happening now.

I, as a male student do not have any troublesome to obtain a room due to the fact that the number of room actually exceeding the number of male students. So there is no question about the implication towards the male students in UiTM Sarawak.

In general, I think the college administration should dispose the activity card implementation although it is a good thing to do that because by having the implementation, the students actually have to do activity which could trigger and boost the activities which are being held.

But, I think to see the implementation being dispose could take some time because the number of room are still maintain at the same rate where as the number of students is keeping on increasing semester by semester. Gradually, it could create more problems rather it solve the problem itself.

Monday, March 23, 2009


When someone has a problem, he or she have this options to solve it:

1. Analyzing the problem and try to find the root cause.

2. Express the current situation to people which you trust and try to take their advice.

3. Consulting to a person whom experienced it before.

4. Running away from the problem.

But if it was you, which options you will choose?
I know a person who chose No.4....

Late night call...

Finally I decided to solve the matter once and for all. For goodness sake, for 2 weeks in a row my head just kept on thinking about her. I need to settle things up so that I would continuing my life without once actually thinking of her and cause my productivity to decrease.

*dialling her number once* but no one answer....

*dialling her number twice* but no one answer....

*dialling her number for the third time* but no one answer....

Hence, I texted her saying, "Please answer the phone. I need to talk to you. That's it".

After I sent it, I try to call her again for the fourth time and.....

Hanim: Hello?

Me : Sorry to disturb you around this time Hanim but we need to talk, try to settle things up.

Hanim: But I'm really sleepy right now. Sleepy indeed *the funny thing is she didn't sounds sleepy at all*

Me : We need to settle things up before anything happens. Just answer my question please? I need to know about something. Is that guy is your new boyfriend? *my heart bled when I asked her that question*

Hanim: I felt really sleepy indeed Black...

Me : Hanim, we need to talk. Just answer me, would you?

Hanim: *hungs up*

So basically, you know which side try to avoid the problem; and try to run away from facing it compared to which side try to face the problem and try to settle things down.

But I won't giving up on trying to talk to her about this matter. Because at the end, I'm the one whom have the strength to make a grave upon it.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Hari Khamis yang sungguh skeptikal sekali...

Terus-terang aku katakan, nak melupakan si dia bukanlah sebegitu mudah sekali terutamanya apabila aku selalu terserempak dengan dia. Ya, aku jumpa dia lagi semalam; Khamis. Dahlah aku patah jiwa minggu lepas pada hari Khamis juga. Aku rasa hari Khamis ni memang nak memalat aku dengan memedihkan hati aku dengan kepedihan tahap gaban.

Aku sebenarnya nak jumpa kawan aku Didi kat blok G tapi dia masih lagi dalam kelas. Entah mengapa aku ternampak si dia dengan lelaki baru dia tu kat tempat duduk depan pejabat siswazah. Bila teman lelaki dia ternampak aku, terus dia menggesel-geselkan badan dia kat badan si dia. Memang dasar nak buat aku cemburu tapi aku tahan je.

Nak menyedapkan lagi cerita, apabila si dia ternampak aku dia pun mula main tolak gesel-gesel badan. Kononnya nak membuatkan hati aku menggelegak yang sememangnya menggelegak bagai nak gila pun!

Tu lah kau Rahman! Nak sangat tunggu kat situ kan? Hah, sekarang kau rasakanlah pulak!

Sebelum badan aku naik hangin, aku pergi balik kelas aku dan cuba tenangkan diri. Lepas habis je kelas, aku bukak komputer riba Farah yang entah berapa hari aku pinjam dan cuba mencari lagu yang boleh membuangkan gambaran si dia dari kotak minda aku.

Dan akhirnya, aku menemui lagu nih....memang puas sangat hati aku.

Sila klik tajuk lagu untuk download...

Kelly Clarkson - Since You've Been Gone

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

The “2nd last post” girl….

Forgive me if I ever hurt your feeling. Forgive me if I ever done anything wrong. Forgive me if I ever abandon you. Forgive me if I ever make you sad.


It has been years since this feeling inside my heart didn’t show itself. You’re the first one in all these years whom successfully unlocked it after the darkness bolt it so tight until it will never reappear again; that is what I think.

I will never forget the time when I want to know you; the semester break has already started. Since you lived in a place quite far from my hometown, I gracefully let away RM10 for reload every night. Yes, your voice is much more luxurious than the value that I sacrificed every day. For two months I only hear your voice in the telephone and words by text. I try to hold myself from being emotionally attach towards you and it works; back then.

After the semester reopen, the first thing that I want to see is you but you only show up at the next day. Frankly, I feel disappointed but at the same time I looked at the bright side. I’ll definitely see you in the next day; just a little bit of patience, just a bit.

On the night I went to see you, the first thing that I want to see is your eyes. I miss those cheeky eyes of yours. The smile, the attitude and the most is the hair. Those curly wavy hair which makes me feels like to cut it and keep it to myself *weak smile*.

That week I took you out and dear, that day is one of the most of precious day that I’ve ever had. Being able to be with you all the time really warmth my heart. Since then, I have emotional attach towards you.

Yes, you already have a boyfriend and I admit that I really do not care about it at all. Then? It doesn’t stop me from winning your heart and eventually by time; I won. But your feeling is tearing into two; one for me and one for your boyfriend. But I really didn’t care about it because I know your boyfriend has atrial septal defects; a hole in the top chamber of the heart; and he needs your support during that moment.

At the same time, lots of guys are trying their luck to win over your heart but you never fall to any of them. At the same time, your friends hate me because stealing you away from your boyfriend. At the same time, I feel happy when I’m with you.

But it all change when your boyfriend passed away back in January. All the sudden you’re trying to run away from me and I kept on asking myself on the purpose you do it until Hana said these words to me that really makes me taken aback.

“For God sake Black! Her boyfriend died without knowing that all of this while his girlfriend are cheating on him! What’s wrong with you!!??”.

At that exact moment I know I have to do something. I tried to call you, texted you and even try to search for you but failed. Even when I saw you, you just ignored me or sometimes just have a little chat with me and then walk away. When I actually have the chance to talk to you; I give some room for you to be with your friends and gaining your strength back.

I can’t stop missing you. I want to be with you. I miss the way your kiss, miss the way when your hair blew by the wind, miss the way you make up and miss the way you love me too much.

Every day by day it continues the same way until I tried to replaced you with other girl. One girl to another girl, I still can’t get you out from my mind. I really miss you so much…. You may hear from people saying that Black is right now flirting with every different girl but actually I try to forgetting you because by thinking of you only suffer me more.

What happened last Thursday really made me cried. Yes, cried. When I saw you with that guy; you were laughing, smiling and looks happy; my heart sank. Hence I purposely walked by in front of you just to see what your reaction is. By the time you saw me; you cover your face with your hands. Why, because you feel ashamed towards me? Is that it?

That was the last straw. I went to my class hoping that feeling would go away but by the time I sat down; I cried. For the first time I cried because of a girl in three years. Now I know where I stand in your life. Maybe I would step back but I wouldn’t because I love you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!


So I would like to see how far you want to carry this out. No matter how hurt am I, no matter how suffer I am; I will always love you. Love you, love you, love you, love you, love you and this words would keep on repeating itself again and again until I die.



Friday, March 13, 2009

Kisah ibu terjahat di dunia...

Hari ini hari Jumaat, maka aku akan menulis dalam bahasa Malaysia.

Sebelum korang semua meneruskan bacaan dalam kiriman ini, aku perlu memberi amaran bahawa apa yang aku ingin tulis di sini akan menyentuh perasaan korang. Tidak kira samada korang lelaki atau perempuan, kecil atau besar, muda atau tua. Kerana apa yang aku ingin paparkan di sini adalah cerita mengenai seorang ibu yang langsung tidak layak sekali bergelar "Ibu".

Dan juga, sebelum terus membaca sila sediakan satu pek tisu untuk mengesat air mata yang mungkin akan mengalir semasa, ketika atau selepas membacanya. Dan jangan salahkan aku jikalau air mata korang tumpah apabila membaca madah aku ini; terutamanya lelaki.

Dengan itu, dipersilakan.


Dua puluh tahun lalu, seorang ibu melahirkan seorang bayi lelaki, amat comel wajahnya akan tetapi bayi itu tampak tuli amat. Suaminya; Ali menamakan anak mereka, Yusri. Semakin lama semakin jelas bahawa anaknya memang agak lembab yang membuatkan si ibu itu berniat untuk menyerahkannya kepada orang lain agar suatu hari nanti Yusri akan mendapat pekerjaan yang ala kadar sahaja. Namun Ali menegah niat buruk itu isterinya itu. Akhirnya terpaksa si ibu membesarkan Yusri.

Pada tahun kedua kelahiran Yusri, si ibu itu melahirkan seorang bayi perempuan yang cantik yang dinamakannya Yasmin. Ali dan isterinya sangat menyayangi Yasmin lebih daripada Yusri. Seringkali pasangan suami isteri itu membawa Yasmin ke taman permainan dan membelikannya pakaian yang cantik-cantik dan mahal.

Tetapi keadaan yang sebaliknya bagi Yusri. Dia hanya memiliki beberapa pasang pakaian yang boleh dikatakan luntur dan boleh diibiratkan sebagai kain buruk sahaja. Ali berniat membelikannya pakaian baru namun isterinya selalu melarang dengan alasan tiada wang dan Ali terpaksa menuruti isterinya itu. Ketika usia Yusri dan Yasmin masing-masing menginjak empat dan dua tahun, Ali meninggal dunia. Mereka kehilangan tempat bergantung dan menjadi miskin disebabkan orang-orang yang menagih hutang arwah suaminya dulu. Akhirnya, si ibu mengambil keputusan yang membawa kepada penyesalan seumur hidup. Dia membawa Yasmin keluar dari rumah bersamanya manakala Yusri yang sedang lena tidur ditinggalkan begitu sahaja.

Bertahun telah berlalu sejak peristiwa itu. Si ibu berkahwin baru dengan seorang jejaka yang bernama Kamal dan kini usia perkahwinan mereka menginjak 5 tahun. Berkat Kamal, sifat-sifat buruk si ibu seperti pemarah, berlagak dan sombong mula menghilang sedikit demi sedikit dan akhirnya merubah si ibu menjadi seorang yang penyabar dan penyayang. Yasmin sudah berumur 18 tahun dan menuntut di universiti dalam bidang kejururawatan. Si isteri langsung tidak mengingati akan perihal Yusri sehinggalah dia di datangi oleh seorang pemuda di dalam mimpinya.

Tampan sungguh wajahnya akan tetapi, rupanya sungguh pucat. Dia melihat ke arah si ibu seraya berkata, "Mak cik, mak cik kenalkah ibu saya? Saya rindu sekali pada ibu!". Sesudah dia berkata demikian, dia mulai pergi akan tetapi segera si ibu menahannya.
"Tunggu dulu! Mak cik rasa mak cik kenal kamu. Siapakah namamu wahai pemuda?".
"Nama saya Yusri, makcik."
"Yusri? Yusri... Ya Tuhan! Betulkah engkau ini Yusri!?".
Si ibu terus tersentak dan terbangun dari mimpi. Perasaan bersalah, penyesalan dan pelbagai lagi perasaan aneh yang lain menerpa dirinya pada masa itu juga. Tiba-tiba terlintas kembali kisah yang terjadi dulu seperti sebuah filem yang ditayangkan kembali di kepala si ibu. Baru sekarang si ibu menyedari betapa jahatnya perbuatannya dahulu. Perasaannya sungguh berkecamuk sehingga dia hampir-hampir memutuskan untuk membunuh diri.
"Ya, aku patut mati! Mati! Mati!"
Cuma seinci sahaja lagi jarak pisau ke pergelangan tangan si ibu, tiba-tiba bayangan Yusri melintas kembali di fikirannya.
"Ya Yusri, ibu akan menjemputmu Yusri. Tunggu ya sayang....".

Pada petang hari itu juga, si ibu membawa dan meletakan kereta Civic birunya disebelah sebuah pondok sehingga membuatkan Kamal berasa hairan. Sambil menatap wajah isteri kesayanganya, dia menanyai tentang maksud mereka berada di tempat yang asing bagi Kamal.
"Hasnah, adakah sesuatu telah terjadi? Maksud abang, mengapa kita berada di tempat yang abang langsung tak kenal ni?"
"Oh abang.... Abang pasti benci akan Hasnah kiranya Hasnah ingin memberitahu abang sesuatu yang selama Hasnah ini rahsiakan daripada abang,".
Si ibu lantas menceritakan segal-galanya dengan tangisan yang teresak-esak. Alhamdulillah, ternyata Allah menganugerahkan si ibu seorang suami yang amat baik sekali dan yang penting sekali, memahami segala penderitaan yang dialami oleh isterinya selama ini.Selepas tangisannya reda, si ibu keluar dari kereta dengan diikuti oleh Kamal. Matanya menatap lekat pada gubuk yang terbentang dua meter dari hadapannya. Si ibu mula mengingati bahawa di pondok buruk itulah dia diam. Dan disitulah dia meninggalkan...."Yusri, Yusri. Adakah kau berada di dalam, nak?".

Ya, di situlah si ibu meninggalkan Yusri 16 tahun lalu. Dengan perasaan sedih si ibu berlari menghampiri pondok tersebut dan membuka pintu yang diperbuat daripada buluh itu.
Gelap sekali. Tidak terlihat sesuatupun di dalamnya....

Perlahan-lahan mata si ibu mulai membiasakan dirinya dengan kegelapan dalam ruangan kecil itu. Namun si ibu tidak menemui sesiapapun di dalamnya. Yang ada, hanyalah sehelai kain buruk yang berlonggok di lantai tanah. Si ibu mengambilnya lalu mengamatinya dengan betul-betul... Matanya mulai berkaca-kaca, si ibu mengenali potongan kain itu . Ini adalah baju buruk yang dulunya dipakai oleh Yusri setiap hari...

Setelah puas berada di dalam pondok itu, si ibu keluar. Air matanya mengalir dengan deras. Sungguh sayu dan sebak sekali keadaan pada ketika itu. Si ibu cuma mendiamkan diri sahaja. Ketika si ibu dan suaminya baru sahaja menaiki kereta untuk meninggalkan tempat itu, si ibu perasan bahawa ada seseorang sedang terhendap-hendap di belakang keretanya. Ketika itu, hari mulai gelap dan apabila si ibu menghampiri orang itu, alangkah terkejutnya bahawa didapati seorang nenek tua memerhatikannya di belakang kereta itu. Tambah mengejutkan si ibu itu lagi apabila dengan tiba-tiba sahaja nenek tua itu menegur si ibu dengan suara yang parau.
"Hei! Siapakah kamu berdua!? Apa yang kalian mahu!? Cepat pergi dari sini!"
Dengan memberanikan diri, si ibu pun bertanya, "Nenek, apakah nenek kenal dengan seorang anak muda yang bernama Yusri yang dulunya tinggal di sini?" sambil wajahnya membuat air muka pengharapan.

Lantas dengan muka yang menunjukkan amarah yang amat, dia menjawab, "Kalau kau adalah ibunya, KAU ADALAH IBU YANG PALING TERKUTUK!!!" bentaknya sambil dadanya berombak-rombak apabila bercakap menandakan si nenek tua itu berada dalam keadaan yang marah amat.

"Tahukah kau? Sejak kau meninggalkannya ENAM BELAS TAHUN yang lalu, Yusri terus menunggu ibunya dan memanggil, 'Ibu...ibu. Ibu berada di mana. Tolong balik ibu!!! Ibu...ibu...' Oleh kerana aku tidak sampai hati melihat keadaannya yang sebegitu, akulah yang memberikannya makanan dan aku juga yang selalu mengajaknya untuk tinggal bersamaku!"

"Walaupun aku ini orang miskin, tidak mempunyai sebarang harta dan hanya bekerja sebagai pemungut sampah, namun aku tidak akan meninggalkan dan TIDAK SAMPAI HATI meninggalkan anakku seperti itu! Tiga bulan yang lalu Yusri meninggalkan sehelai kertas ini. Dia belajar menulis setiap hari selama bertahun-tahun hanya untuk menulis ini untuk kau..."

Si ibu pun membaca tulisan yang agak kusam pada kertas itu. Surat yang berbunyi, "Ibu, mengapa ibu tidak pernah kembali lagi? Ibu marah pada Yusri, ya? Ibu, biarlah Yusri yang pergi saja akan tetapi ibu harus berjanji yang ibu tidak akan marah lagi pada Yusri,".

Si ibu menjerit seakan-akan histeria apabila habis membaca surat itu. Sambil melutut di kaki nenek tua itu, si ibu merayu "Tolong...tolonglah beritahu di mana anak ku sekarang? Aku janji yang aku akan menyayanginya! Aku tidak akan meninggalkannya lagi! Tolonglah!!!! Beritahu di mana anakku itu...!!!" dengan Kamal memeluk erat tubuh isterinya yang terketar-ketar dan lemah itu.

Dengan nada yang lembut nenek tua itu berkata, "Semuanya sudah terlambat. Sehari sebelum kamu datang, Yusri sudah meninggal dunia. Dia meninggal di belakang pondok ini. Tubuhnya sangat kurus dan dia sangat lemah. Hanya demi menunggumu, dia rela bertahan di belakang pondok ini tanpa akan berani masuk ke dalamnya. Dia takut apabila ibunya datang nanti, ibunya akan pergi lagi apabila melihat dirinya ada di dalam sana,".

"Dia hanya berharap dapat melihat ibunya dari belakang pondok ini. Meskipun hujan deras, dengan keadaannya yang lemah, dia terus berkeras dan berdegil menunggu kamu di sana,".

Dan secara tiba-tiba nenek tua itu berkata dengan rasa amarah yang amat sekali, "DENGAN SEMUA INI, KAU MASIH LAGI FIKIR YANG KAU ADALAH IBU YANG BAIK!? DOSA KAU TAK AKAN TERAMPUN!!!!". Si ibu tiba-tiba sahaja pengsan dan tidak dapat mengingati apa-apa lagi.


Semoga menjadi pelajaran bagi kita sebagai orang tua mahupun bagi yang akan berkahwin; janganlah menyalahkan apa yang sudah diberikan oleh Allah s.w.t. Tetapi hargailah apa yang diberikan oleh Allah itu dengan cuba bersabar.Kerana Dia tidak akan memberikan sesuatu apapun dengan sia-sia.

Pengajaran kisah ini: Sayangi orang di sekitar anda kerana anda tidak tahu akan sesiapa yang benar-benar menyayangi kita.

Thursday, March 12, 2009


When I'm on my way out from the library
I saw her with another guy

I purposely walked by in front of her
and stares her straight to the eyes...
She closed her faced with her hands when she noticed me walked by....

And my heart starts to pumping faster...
....Pumping hard....
Hard enough until it reached its limit of turgidity....
Until it starts to bleed....
My tears want to burst out...
but I try to hold it...
but when I reached my class and took my seat at the most back...

I can't hold the damp anymore....

I cried

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Finally…I arrived!!!!

Now, let s went back to the situation where Swinburne and me were stuck at LCCT.

Since both of us ran out of money, clothes and food; basically we are totally at our deepest moment ever. So there we are, starving and thirsty thinking our way to overcome the situation.

Swin called Miss L to inform her about our current situation. Apparently, her sister was on the flight that we suppose to broad. But by the time her sister knew about it, it was already too late. If not, taking her quote from Miss L, “I would take them at my next flight”.

As for Mr. Constitution, he actually done nothing to help us during the most devastative moment ever faced by both of us. Yes, I do realize if he was there with us he could do something but HE WASN’T THERE.

Mdm. Constitution was actually really worried about both of us. I mean both of us stuck in a foreign land with no money or clothes. She felt terrible for the situation that both of us were facing then.

Hence, since both of us are basically stuck at LCCT, we must figure out an idea on how to return to UiTM Shah Alam. This is due to the phone call that Swin made after we missed our flight. He said that if we went back to UiTM Shah Alam, Hafiz would take care of us; mind you that he actually lost his pet two days before he moved to his new house.

My mother called me two hours after we missed the flight stating that she already banked in RM100 to Swin’s account. Without wasting any time, Swin withdraw the money and by using that money we manage our way to UiTM Shah Alam. We took the bus and taxi with the overall amount of RM49.

When we arrived, the Novice Cup tournament has already started. By the time we reached at the Engineering Faculty building, we are already in the peak of frustration for what so ever reason that put us in the situation at the first place.

Swin were at his the most down moment in his life during that time. Imagine this; when he went to the tournament room and everyone greeted him, he just stares at them and don’t reply those greets. He faced Hafiz and he told Swin to wait him at the building’s car place.

By them time Hafiz said that to him, Swin went berserk. His gone mad towards everyone; me, Miss L, Fuad, Mr. Constitution, Hafiz and such. But I understand his emotion during that time. I don’t blame him. Even Fuad also do understand; no doubt upon that.

When Hafiz sent us to Kolej Perindu, Swin and I straight away went to the room and make ourselves calm. I bought a brush and a wash soap to wash the dirty clothes. And since both of us ran out of clothes to wear, we went to Wisma PKNS to buy some new clothes.

Both of us waiting for bus to UiTM after doing some 'shopping'

During the night, the other debaters from other campuses are quite surprised to see us. We told them what happened and basically, they just said “You guys are quite good at wasting government's money”. *laugh*

The next day, we woke up quite late and headed our way. Mind you that our minds are quite clear compared to yesterday. Since both of us already miss a lot of stuff that we suppose to do when we return to Kuching BY THAT TIME, we do our study and research in the Novice Cup operation room. When the tournament has ended its semi-final, Hafiz told us to book flying tickets back to Kuching. Since there were no flight ticket on Sunday available, I picked the opt to booked the ticket going back on Monday exactly at 6.40 p.m. The reason I did that is because if I book the ticket early in the morning like the previous one, there is a chance that both of us would miss the flight again.

So on the day of the flight, both of us woke up early and packed our bags. To avoid the same mistake being done; we told Hafiz that our flight is at 5.00 p.m. He arrived and we said goodbye to Fuad who have the sincerity to be with us throughout the day we missed our flight till the day of our departure.

Thank you Fuad for your companion during those hard moments. I'll remember it till death

Taking a picture with Yellow Coverageman before I leave the UiTM ground

We checked in early but something happened. Taking Swin’s quote, “Either the airplane hates us or Shah Alam loves us so much”. Due to the technical problem faced by the plane that we already board in, we have to change to another plane. It took us at least one hour before the airplane started to fly.

When we arrived at Kuching, I almost burst to tears when I saw my mother and brother waiting for me at the arrival gate. Swin and I headed to our own way; he went home and I headed to UiTM.

*the end*

Basically, that the story of us being stranded in Shah Alam for five days and I have to agree with Swin that this is the worst moment that we ever had. We also could not blame ourselves if we are traumatic for another flight again. Have to be note that the Malaysian Open will be held in Malacca next week. NO!!!!!!!!!

P/S: Mr. Constitution is having a depressed moment with the Financial Unit right now concerning to the flight ticket that we supposed to board in. Hehehe..

Rear Seatbelt Implementation & Its Flaws

Starting on the 1st January 2009, there is new rule for all backseat passengers to wear rear seatbelt. This is due to the statistic shown by the Malaysian Road Safety Department (JKJR) which state most of the victims during accidents among cars are the backseat passenger themselves. Unfortunately, there are some flaws in the rule itself and this article would look what are the flaws and the affect towards the people.

Since nowadays cars are equipped with backseat rear seatbelt, they are to abide with the new road safety rule. But cars which are already registered before 1st January 1995 are being exempted due to the fact that all of these cars are not equip with back seatbelt. Thus, the government gives three years to the car owner to set up the back seatbelt.

According to the Road Transport Department (JPJ) based on their database in the year of 2008, there are just twenty-percent old cars left on the roads. Meaning, from 3.9 millions cars on the street, 780 000 cars out there need to set up back seat belt by their owners. In other words, they have to spend some money for putting up the seat belt which actually involves high cost. Most of the owners of the old car are actually employed with medium source of income. Hence, by having them to put up the rear seatbelt using their money, they actually have cut off the expenses such as groceries and their other life’s expenses; not to mention if they already have a family. It would be a total burden to them.

Malaysians are notoriously being known for their ignorance attitude. Since the implementation of the rule will be prosecute three years for their car, they would just ignore the rule since they have lots of time to spare for them to put up the rear seatbelt. And when the time that has been given is already up, they would tend to give excuses if ever the old car that they use being caught by the authority.

In the rule, there is a phrase saying that since the number of the rear seatbelt which being set up at the backseat are only limited for three unit. Hence, the fourth passenger is being exempted from the rule. But when we refer back to the statistic provided by JKJR stating that the backseat passengers have the high percentage of self-risk when accident occur.

But by exempting the fourth passenger, we actually putting their life at stake where as the main purpose of us to have the new rule is that to ensure the backseat passengers life are safe. By looking at this point, the rule itself will eventually return back to square one.

This flaw of this exemption leads to another thing which is a burden to big family. Apparently, even tough the fourth passenger is being exempted from the rule but he or she will be fine on the offence of “over-loading”. Same goes to the other excess passenger whom riding along. Since cars have a limit number of passengers, it actually troubles the big family especially when they have many children.

Besides facing the risk of being given fine for over-loading, they need to reconsider to which of their sons or daughters that will follow them and which children need to be leave at home. Hence, it will be a problem especially when the family wants to go back to their village during festive season. They just can’t leave their other children behind just because the law said so. There would be security issues of the children themselves staying at the house and the cost that involve if the parents want to buy a new vehicle.

Plus, the new rule does not state the age for the backseat passenger whom are eligible to the rule. By the definition of the rule stating that “all backseat passenger must wear a seatbelt”, all of the passenger; putting aside their age; must obligate to the rule including toddlers. But the situation now is that toddlers are not big enough to use rear seatbelt. Instead, the parents need to buy a special seat for the toddlers which will cost them a lot especially if the parents are middle-income employee.

But from all the flaws that has been mentioned, it does not equal with the other flaws in which the new rule only being implemented to private cars. But for the commercial vehicle such as taxi, bus etc. This is the flaw of double standard being given by the JKJR because the number of express bus which involved in accidents is increasing year by year. Plus, the capacity of passengers in the bus compared to a car is much more. So by giving a double-standard towards the private vehicles, this would make things much worst.

Lastly, the implementation of the new rule will instill unnecessary fear into public. This is because the fine for the passenger whom do not obligate to the rule are at least cost them RM400. If they do not comply with the fine by paying it, the JKJR would then bring the matter to the court and the passenger will be charge. If the passenger is found guilty, he or she will be in prison at least for two years or being penalize RM2000 or both.

But what if the passenger that is being charge is still a teenager? Aren’t we have our lesson when the court sent a 17 years old teenager for did not going to the National Service? If the new rule is still being implemented throughout the year, eventually the number of fouls being made by the teenagers will increase and eventually, the police record of the teenagers will exist. It will make a bad impression towards them especially concerning about their future. This is also would contradict the actual reason for the rule itself. It is to educate the citizen on the importance of rear seatbelt not instilling fear.

From all the flaws that has been mentioned above, it would be likely if the new rule are being reconsider and to be revise again because it brings more bad affect especially towards the middle-income family and big family. Hence, by doing so, it would ensure that the passengers are not just gain the benefit from the rule but also to make sure that there is no abuse towards them

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Don't know what to do

So I'll spare the selection for the ASEAN debate in the next post.

Hence basically, Swinburne and me suppose to return to Kuching 7.40 p.m yesterday. But since the selection is extended to 8 p.m that night, so with the help of Azmilah, Paul and Mdm. Afidah, we're able to have a second flight at 11.40 a.m the very next day.

What I'm going to write is something is personally to me is the most bullshit deep shit fucking thing that ever happened in my life.

I was felt quite devastated yesterday since I'm just being alone throughout the day before the written test for the selection; yes, they do have written test for the selection. FUCK!!! WHY I TALKED ABOUT THE SELECTION!!!!

Today, the our flight were waiting for us but the FUCKING thing here is the transportation of UiTM to send us to the airport were having a BIG SHIT miscommunication. They waited for us at Kolej Jati where as we are waiting at Kolej Perindu!

It's already 10.00 a.m but the transportation hasn't arrive yet so we call Hafiz and he sent us to the airport.

Iqhbal Hafis sending us to the airport

By the time we arrived at the airport, the gate to the flight has closed. We're actually quee up at the wrong flight and that cost us a lots of time to know what we are already to late.

We called Hafis whom are busy with the Novis Cup and we told him what happened. He told us to go to UiTM Shah Alam from the LCCT but we don't have any money left!!!

Swinburne and me being stranded in LCCT

I called my parents and they try all their best right now (by the time I wrote this) to manage things up. My mother banked in RM100 to Swinburne's account since I don't have any ATM card.

Now, I'm here in LCCT being hungry, confused, angry, sad and all those stuff. I'll update what will happen next.

P/S: Now I think the lecturers do learn their lesson to do not let the students alone to do the travelling. And I'm right now is on the peak level of homesick!!!!! I miss my home...*cry*

Friday, March 6, 2009

Gembira :>

Hatiku gembira amat!!!!

Pasal aku jumpa dan cakap dengan.....



Disebabkan hari ini ialah hari Jumaat, maka aku akan menulis kiriman dalam bahasa Malaysia. Bukannya apa, tiap-tiap hari aku speaking letih jugak tau. Dah la kiriman pun dalam bahasa Inggeris; nanti bahasa ibunda aku jugak yang berkarat karang.

Aku sekarang ni kat UiTM Shah Alam; Perpustakaan Tun Abdul Razak 2 (PTAR2) secara terperinci. Memang aku letih gila babi tahap gaban punya.

Bayangkan, sampai kat Lapangan Terbang Antarangbangsa Kuching (KIA) pukul 8 pagi. Dah tu pulak belum pekena sarapan pagi lagi! Nak memburukkan keadaan pulak bila penerbangan tu pukul 9.30 pagi dan selamat tiba di Terminal Penerbangan Murah (LCCT) hampir jam 11.00 pagi. Dah tu terpaksa secara bergesa-gesa pergi UiTM Shah Alam kerana mesyuarat untuk pemilihan peserta bagi Debat ASEAN akan bermula jam 3.00 petang.

Dah sampai tu, bertemu lak dengan Fuad; kawanku kat UiTM Kota Samarahan dulu. Sementara menunggu pejabat Kolej Perindu buka, Nizam, Fuad dan aku pergi makan tengahari sekejap. Selepas tu bila nak daftar bilik, kunci yang disediakan oleh pihak kolej hilang dari meja diorang. Nizam dan aku macam, "Apa kejadah semuanya ni? Dah la nak berebut pergi mesyuarat lepas ni". Jadi aku pun tunggu dan akhirnya bilik dah ada tapi kunci pulak tak ada.

Jadi kami berdua tinggalkanlah beg kita orang kat bilik Fuad sekejap. Lepas tu Nizam tersemput-semput berjalan pasal bilik mesyuarat kat Kolej Seroja tu jauh sangat. Aku yang bekas atlet jalan kaki selamba jer berjalan.

Nizam tak der bilik kerana apabila aku balik kembali ke bilik, ada tiga orang mamat ni yang telah mengambil 3/4 katil. Jadi katil yang tinggal aku yang punya lah. Nizam pulak tinggal dalam bilik Fuad. Kepada Nizam, aku minta maaf banyak-banyak. Aku tak berniat pun.

Bila dah sampai, kita orang membuat pilihan secara rawak untuk kedudukan dalam kumpulan debat berserta dengan ahli kumpulan. Aku dapat kumpulan dua dengan kedudukan sebagai pendebat penjawab; ketiga la. Tambahan pulak, aku sama kumpulan dengan teman lelaki Sarah Yasmin!!!! Gembiranya aku !!!! (aku gembira kerana aku bersama dengan orang yang penting dalam hidup Sarah Yasmin. Korang jangan nak fikir macam-macam pulak, okay?). Dalam kedua-dua pusingan debat tu, aku kekal dengan kedudukan aku sedangkan semua orang lain bertukar posisi. Dah la aku berlawan dengan budak Kelab Debat UiTM Shah Alam, jadi korang tau lah macam mana perasaan gabra dan gementar aku ketika memberi ucapan. Tapi alhamdulillah, semunya berjalan lancar cuma diantara semua pendebat yang terlibat, aku sorang je yang tak memberi "Kenyataan Pemberitahuan" (P.O.I).

Habis je debat, aku dan tiga orang pendebat dari mana ntah pergi bilik dan tidur. Pagi tadi aku bangun pukul 5.45 pagi dan menyelesaikan tugasan yang diberi oleh lecturer subjek bahasa Inggeris aku; BEL 311 Term Paper.

Lepas jer siap, aku pun menghantar kepada pensyarah aku melalui e-mail. Nasib baik dia boleh bertolak-ansur dengan aku. Kalau tak, melayang 10 markah.

Nizam pulak pergi ke MidValley dengan pendebat dari Sabah; Azel namanya. Aku pun apa lagi, rasa terasing lah. Pasal aku sorang-sorang, tak kenal sesiapa dan macam-macam lagilah. Dah lah kecantikan sini aku boleh umpamakan sebagai species yang terancam. Aku nak balik UiTM Kota Samarahan!!!!!

P/S: Terus-terang aku ingin menyatakan disini bahawa aku hampir-hampir nak menangis kerana terlalu rindukan rumah (kampung halaman ler). Aku nak balik hari ni jugak!!! Aku tak kira!!!! Aku tak nak disebabkan debat ni, aku menangis. Taubat aku tak nak kembali ke UiTM Shah Alam balik. Aku rindukan rumah!!!!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

One last say goodbye....

1 hour and 40 minutes before I take my flight, I just want to say goodbye (temporarily) to you all at Kuching. And you guys in Shah Alam, I'll meet you there.

The tireness of last night still reflect at the face

P/S: I do hope I meet Sarah Yasmin there..hahaha. And why all the sudden my stomach feel different? I have a bad hunch about this...NO! I'LL BE NOT SELECTED!!! I hope so.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

No more...

Due to the fact that people kept on deteriorating me because of the TEC & TDC blogs, I hereby saying that both of them are GONE.



A quick post for you guys. Tomorrow I'll be leaving to Shah Alam due to the fact it is a last minutes notice from TDC.
And Mdm. Constituition want to see me after this....hence,

When you are heart broken

Remember you guys? When we are in our rundown emotional state, we tend to be alone and listen to heart-broken songs? Well, I don't blame you for that.

To add some to your misery, I hereby present to you this song by Babyface, my all time favourite singer with the most best; personally; heart-broken song ever made.

You may download the song by clicking the tittle.

Babyface - The Loneliness

[Verse 1]

I'm sitting here
Thinking 'bout
How I'm gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl I'm not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think I'm gonna lose my mind


So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (is like I dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (it's like everyday I die)
Wish i was dreaming but it's real (when I open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

[Verse 2]

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here it's clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I can't have you in my life

[Chorus (repeat till end)]

So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (is like I dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (it's like everyday I die)
Wish i was dreaming but it's real (when I open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

P/S: Do not kill me if you feel the sufferness while listening to this song

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

My "one of a kind" busy schedule

As promise I would like to present to you the things-that-I-do-which-makes-me-occupied list. Judge by yourself and I hope you would find something which will benefit you.


10 a.m – 12 p.m: Economic class ECO113
(between 11.45 a.m – 12 p.m rushed to
ILQAM to get the LCD)
12 p.m – 1 p.m: Soil Science AGR161 class
1 p.m – 2 p.m: Lunch, like I have one <15>
Go to library to have a quick look at today’s newspaper <15>
See a girl and get her number <10>
People call/text to help with their lappy <20>
2 p.m – 4 p.m: BEL 311 class
4 p.m – 6 p.m: Plant Science AGR200 class
6 p.m – 8 p.m: In the library to read today’s news, if I found some friends I would
hang-out with them
8 p.m – 11 p.m: Do my research, update the blogs, read peoples blogs, comments, go to
canteen to have my dinner
11 p.m – 12.30 a.m: Hang-out at Seri Mulu 6319 room, go to people’s room to
fix their laptop
12.30 a.m : Sleep


3.30 a.m – 10 a.m: Study early in the morning, finishing my assignments, onlining to read
the latest news, post to blog if there’s time to spare and yes, I only
sleep for three hours.
10 a.m – 12 p.m: CTU 211 class
12 p.m – 2 p.m: Public debate
2 p.m – 4 p.m: BEL 311 class
4 p.m – 6 p.m: Go to library to read newspapers and do research
6 p.m – 8 p.m: Go to the computer lab to do some “maintenance”
8 p.m – 10 p.m: Go to the Youth Floor to be with Kaka, Asma and Mem. Plus, being the
unofficial technician to people whom looking for me when their laptop
giving them a fuss while onlining
10 p.m – 11 p.m: Buy dinner at the stall behind Seri Mulu and replying people comments in
my Friendster and text which I don’t have the time to reply.
11 p.m – 1 p.m: Be at Seri Mulu 6319 room and have the lesson of the day
1 p.m: Sleep


3.30 a.m – 10 a.m: Study early in the morning, finishing my assignments, onlining to read
the latest news. Plus, make a post to my blog. Then rush to ILQAM to get
the LCD projector.
10 a.m – 12 p.m: Soil Science AGR161 class
12 p.m – 2 p.m: Go for lunch with Yaya, Hana, B.J and Be’be’. Go to the library to read
newspapers by quick glance.
2 p.m – 4 p.m: Accountancy ACC100 class
4 p.m – 8 p.m: In the library doing research for tomorrow’s motion and finishing my
8 p.m – 10 p.m: Meet with Kaka, Asma, Mem and Jez at Youth Floor.
10 p.m – 11 p.m: Buy dinner and sleep (you’ll know why I go off to bed quite early)


3.30 a.m – 8 a.m: Study early in the morning, finishing my assignments, onlining to read
the latest news.
8 a.m – 10 a.m: Accountancy ACC100 class
10 a.m – 12 p.m: BEL 311 class
12 p.m – 2 p.m: Lunch, print assessment, do extensive research, notify people about the
debate tonight, go to ILQAM to fetch the LCD projector again
2 p.m – 4 p.m: Science AGR161 class
4 p.m – 7 p.m: In the library doing some work, hang-out with friends, reading newspapers
7 p.m – 11 p.m: Debate training
11 p.m – 2 a.m: Be at Seri Mulu 6319 room and have the lesson of the day
2 a.m: Sleep


7 a.m – 12 p.m: Be at the DPIM’s farm
12 p.m – 1.30 p.m: Friday prayer, lunch
1.30 – 2 p.m: Wash the dirty clothes from the farm
2 p.m – 4 p.m: Sleep because I’ve been lacking in those
4.30 p.m: Went back home

See how busy I am in the campus from Monday to Friday. It doesn’t include the things that I have to do in the time interval; such as photostating, put up the notice for the debate in the entire campus, go to HEP to get the stamp for legal notice put up, formatting people’s laptop etc.

Please do not count Saturday and Sunday since this is the only time I can only go out and have a walk *The Spring* but mostly I just sit at home and take care of the house and my brothers & sister. In other words, being an unpaid amah for the weekend.

Blog as for academic purposes

Yesterday was one of the weirdest days I’ve ever had. Not just people whom I do not recognize saying “Hi” to me but they also added,
“Nice blog you have there Black. Keep that up”,
“It’s pity that you have a bad week Black. But hey, at least you fixed it” and
“Tsk..tsk.. Black, do not care what people thinks okay? Just be careful next time”.
I was like wondering to myself, “Why suddenly people knew the existence of my blog?” As the time goes by plus having quite a busy day, I totally forgotten about it until it went to Miss L’s office.

“Hello Miss L! Is Swinburne here?” because I need to see him for the today’s motion which I doubt there will be one public debate this afternoon.
“No dear. I haven’t seen him today. Why?”
“Nah, it’s just I need to see him for the debate for tomorrow” while grabbed the nearest chair. I’m waiting for Miss L to sit down; mind to you people that it’s rude to sit first before the people superior than you are. For example, your parents, teachers and in this case, a lecturer.
“Did you search for him in the library?”
“Yes, I did but he wasn’t there.”
“Owh, maybe he is already gone back home. Why you don’t just call him then?”
“It’s alright, miss. I’ll call him later” because I don’t want him to pickup the phone in the middle of the road.

“You know what, miss? Today is like the weirdest day ever.”
“Why” while sitting down and at that moment I put my buttock on the chair. Remember; polite and manners.
“Because people kept saying ‘hi’ to me and commented about my blog where as I did not know them. I mean, suddenly why people read my blog? It’s not like I advertise it.”
And Miss L goes, “It’s because I’m promoting it!”
I was stunned for a while.
“Why? Why do you promoting it?”
“It is because the content of your blog; referring to the language proficiency; is a good way to teach the students on how to write well and fix the grammatical error. By mean, before this you have quite a number of grammatical error in your post but today I was surprise because in your latest post, there just less grammatical error. So that is why I promote it to my students because they could learn something from there.”
And I was like, “Hence, you wrote down the link to my blog?”
She replied, “Yes I did! I wrote it down and my students like saying, “Okay miss. We will check it out”.”

No wonder people say ‘hi’ to me and commented about my blog. She’s the mastermind behind all this. Hahaha…
Hey, at least the last thing I would want is they come up to me and say, “Black, may I have your autograph?” in front of my friends….

P/S: Do not do that.

Monday, March 2, 2009

All things are going back to normal again….I think

Last week is the most troublesome week I’ve ever had. Not just have all the people around me almost-pull-the-trigger to hate me but I do jeopardize them in such a way that it made me feel really unmotivated throughout the week until I have to cancelled the debate training on Thursday without Swinburne’s authorization *sorry Swin*. But the past is the past and all I have to do right now is look at it and try to do not do the same thing again. It’s precious I could say.

Sorry I have to break my promise to update the blog at least once in every two days due to some internal problems (which I think you already know). But from now on I’ll try my best to update all of the three blogs which are under my management. I hope Fuad and Maisarah do help me by updating TEC site as well. It has been a hell load of work from me. Externally and internally exhausted, I shall continue with my plan.

Hey, it’s already March! I keep on forgetting that I’m in a new month hence more efficient work to do. The reason that makes me kept on being busy is where the time synchronization is just “right”. Meaning by all of the stuff that I’ve been doing is almost overlapping. Thank God there are people whom I can count on during those moments. In the next post, maybe I’ll do what Faradiba and her friend did; stating and listing what they do, what they did throughout the whole week and month. From there you will know how busy I am, no matter what kind of stuff that I occupied with.

Personally, I think it is what I so called “the debater curse”. Did you realize; you guys who are debaters no matter what universities or campuses; your life totally change after you joined TDC? Maybe before this you are nobody or merely a number of people know you and having such a free-time-moments after you finish your class. But after you become a debater, suddenly the whole burden of assignments, research, presentation, life obstacles, matter-which-are-not-concern-to-you and what-are-the-things-that-made-me-busy-all-suddenly-which-I-do-
not-know-what-I-am-busy-about are on your shoulders? Hence, I advised to all debaters out there if you want to attract people to join TDC, please DO-NOT-IN-WHAT-EVER-THINGS-OR-LIFE-THREATENING-SITUATION you mention about this curse or they will back off. I mean the burden will not come in a pile in a jiffy but it will slowly come to you and by the accordance of time, it will pile up more than come-in-a-pile-in-a-jiffy. So debaters; between you and me; shut the things up.

For this week, for the first time ever I just stayed at home for one day. Mind you that my course in UiTM were having their “Family Day” which apparently I didn’t go due to the fact that I’m a busy person; no time to enjoy myself; and also I need to take care of the house especially my brothers (seven of them) and my little sister because my parents are having their business to attend which make them have to leave the house for 2 days. Since I’m the ONLY elder brother which my parents can count on, therefore I leave all the stuff behind and went back home. But suddenly, on my first day Zureen called me stating that she wanted to see me. By leaving my duty to my father whom came home that time and my usu, I went back to UiTM seeking for Yaya and Zureen.

That Saturday night, apparently there is an occasion of “Battle of The Band” in conjunction with “Malam Gala Gading”. That night, I went there with B.J and his friends but unexpectedly I sat together with Jesse, Asma and Kaka. After I accompanied the girls back to their dorm block, I went back to Youth Floor and waited for Yaya before she called me to meet at the road between the canteen and Dewan Jubli. From there; exception to Zureen’s kept-on-interupting; Yaya and me talk and we already resolved the matter. Almost of the girls in the world, I wouldn’t sacrifice, burden and jeopardize my friendship with Yaya, Zureen nor Hana. They are my trustful and true female friends ever. They are meant a lot to me then I meant to them.

So I’ve heard the rumour that for the next “Family Day” that my classmates want to select me as the Project Manager due to the fact that they are quite pissed that I actually didn’t come for the Family Day since 3 semesters ago. Yes people, starting in Part 1 until Part 3 (now), I didn’t bother go even once. So by that, they want to increase my burden. First thing first, it is not that I don’t want to handle the project but people; I’M A BUSY BOY. Due to this fact, you actually want my commitment towards this stuff which apparently most of you know that I might do not get 100% commitment towards these things. People, come on and grow up. Please do not put the project at stake because it involves big budgets and a huge number of people. It involves the whole Ladang course for goodness sake. Either you listen to me or not, do not blame the outcome.

Hence, I’m looking forward to the things that might happen this week and like I said to myself when I’m in a tight, tense, out-of-time and stress moments, “I’ll manage”.